NeyNey
Love My IVF Munchkin
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To be honest since joining this forum I've pretty much avoided this area, I've popped in a couple of times, but found it too heart breaking to stay.
DH and I lost a little one at 12 weeks, it happened not long after we started trying (a few cycles) - and it was a complete and utter heart crushing experience. To go from such an elated joyful feeling to this sudden crashing mournful sorrow was so exhausting. I was showing, and that was what was so horrible - watching that "bump" disappear, small as it was We really don't talk about it, and even though our families know, they never bring it up, I think they are scared to because I have never bought it up again either.
I'm terrified of going through that again. And sometimes I wonder if it is affecting our chances of TTC now? I mean people go on and on about the power of positive thinking, well what about the power of negative thinking? Does anyone else feel this way?
Every month when I test my angel comes to mind, and I begin to fear the results. Sometimes I think I'm relieved to see the BFN, can you believe that? I mean what on earth is up with that?
DH and I lost a little one at 12 weeks, it happened not long after we started trying (a few cycles) - and it was a complete and utter heart crushing experience. To go from such an elated joyful feeling to this sudden crashing mournful sorrow was so exhausting. I was showing, and that was what was so horrible - watching that "bump" disappear, small as it was We really don't talk about it, and even though our families know, they never bring it up, I think they are scared to because I have never bought it up again either.
I'm terrified of going through that again. And sometimes I wonder if it is affecting our chances of TTC now? I mean people go on and on about the power of positive thinking, well what about the power of negative thinking? Does anyone else feel this way?
Every month when I test my angel comes to mind, and I begin to fear the results. Sometimes I think I'm relieved to see the BFN, can you believe that? I mean what on earth is up with that?