Back again, feeling stronger

[Lazy Leo]

Hi all, I stopped posting for a few weeks there I felt I couldn't face people any more. I honestly felt ashamed, but I just got so distressed when one of the other members posted a BFP. I cried and cried and decided I needed to give myself a break. When AF came about a week later I went to bed that night and just cried my heart out on my hubby's chest. Therapeutic but it didn't change anything.

He works abroad for four weeks and then comes home for four usually but at the moment we are working on a really wierd schedule, 2 away, 1 home, 4 away and unfortunately the way it works we'll keep missing my fertile period. I'm half way through the TWW week at the moment and I really don't think we have a chance as he wasn't here until the day after I ovulated but my nipples have been slightly tender and I can't help but wonder if it might have happened anyway! Wishful thinking I think!

Anyway, if AF comes on Wed as I expect then I know I am out for the next few months and I've embarked on a fitness campaign to try to get myself fitter and healthier. I've got 13 (unlucky I know!) friends / family who are pregnant just now and it just seems so random, but most of them are fairly slim, fit & healthy with a couple of exceptions so I'm going to focus on that.

If anyone else out there needs some time out, I'd say take it. Mentally, it does you the world of good.

Babydust to all xxxx

 

[wishes]

Big hugs hun got my fingers crossed that you dont have to wait much longer.

 

[anita665]

I really hope it happens for you soon. Welcome back!!

 

[HAYS]

welcome back hun, hope your feeling better, and good luck
xx

 

[Lazy Leo]

Thanks everone, it's good to be back, deep down I know I'm much luckier than many people and thank god for sites like this that reinforce that there are thousands if not millions of people across the globe with similar problems!

 

[Vickie]

glad to have you back

 

[pinkmommy]

GL, we all know how frustrating it is.

 

[Rumpskin]

Good luck Nic, sending you a hug

 

[charliebear]

just wanted to send u a hug
good luck

 

[SJK]

Welcome back, good luck xx

 

[diva4180]

and good luck hun!

 

[Lazy Leo]

Thank you all so much for the luck & hugs. As i said, thank goodness for this site! I don't know how to add the fairy dust-mother icon, but rest assured i'm sending you all lots of baby & sticky dust!!!

 

[Sinead]

Really hope you rget your BFP soon

 

[Frankie]

Hi hun

Just wanted to say dont ever be ashamed!!!! were all in the same boat good luck for this month

Never give up giving up x

 

[loopylew]

good luck hun xx and welcome back xx

 

[Lazy Leo]

Did any of you ever get to thinking of blaming your OH for wanting to wait? I went through that a few months ago even though I knew it was unfair on him. We've been together since we were 18 (almost 12 years) and married for almost 6, but even when I felt ready a couple of years ago he didn't. And even though I could have stopped taking the pill and not told him, I couldn't have done that to him and ultimately to us - it would have been a total betrayal. But it didn't stop me throwing it back at him after 4 or 5 months with nothing but BFN's!