Being back at work is breaking my heart

[honey915]

So I stupidly took a new job three weeks after returning full time to work. This Job is in management but was still only meant to be three long days a week (36 hours). They know I have two kids inc a breastfed 9 mo at home but they've just upped my hours to 43 per week over 4 days. Three 12 hours shifts and one 6. I'm knackered already and hardly have time for anything or anyone when I'm home. I'm so depressed! Yet career is moving and will benefit us in the long run. Hubby can't work he stays at home with kids and I work. But we don't have masses of outgoings so I could change jobs but il be throwing away my career. I just don't know what to do for the best -all i know is my maternity flew and I feel robbed a bit because I want to be at home and I'm being pulled away from my family and it hurts so much just needed to vent more than anything and maybe there are others out there who know how I feel. I'm still barely getting any sleep at night as I co sleep although I enjoy this closeness with little man xx

 

[honey915]

See I'm that tired I can't even add up 42 hours a week not 43! But with the work commute that's an extra 4 hours too a week!

 

[diggory77]

It's difficult. I'm a health professional but I'm thinking of quitting my career for a lesser paid, lesser skilled job if it means I get to be with my baby in the daytime. Money isn't everything, your happiness counts too. I keep thinking what will I regret more as an old lady, spending time at work or spending time with my kids? Could you go to the drs and get signed off work for a week or two? May give you time to reevaluate things
Xxxx

 

[honey915]

Thankyou for your response, im currenty off on anns

 

[honey915]

Annual leave for a week so im evaluating things now. Let me know hoe you get on xx

 

[Laucu]

So I stupidly took a new job three weeks after returning full time to work. This Job is in management but was still only meant to be three long days a week (36 hours). They know I have two kids inc a breastfed 9 mo at home but they've just upped my hours to 43 per week over 4 days. Three 12 hours shifts and one 6. I'm knackered already and hardly have time for anything or anyone when I'm home. I'm so depressed! Yet career is moving and will benefit us in the long run. Hubby can't work he stays at home with kids and I work. But we don't have masses of outgoings so I could change jobs but il be throwing away my career. I just don't know what to do for the best -all i know is my maternity flew and I feel robbed a bit because I want to be at home and I'm being pulled away from my family and it hurts so much just needed to vent more than anything and maybe there are others out there who know how I feel. I'm still barely getting any sleep at night as I co sleep although I enjoy this closeness with little man xx

I just want to let you know that I understand how you feel.

I went back to a full time job when Emma was 9 months old and hated it. I felt so heartbroken, and jealous of my husband and mil doing the childcare.

After a year I could take no more. And so ditched the career opportunity for a part time job that was well below my skill level. But you know what? The company I worked for were amazing, and treated me sooooo much better than the full time job (where I was basically bullied and threatened with disciplinary action over minor things, once they knew my heart wasn't in it.)

It is such a hard decision. I hope you can figure things out and find a balance that you are happy with.