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[Wish2BMom]

ask - YES definitely take the classes!! They are worth it, even if you've done all the research you think you need. It's good confirmation of what is going on right NOW. Like, DH and I have had CPR training many times in the past but the trainer said that what we learned 5+ yrs ago has changed. So it's a good refresher and way to learn new techniques. And you have a new reason to pay attention!
Thawed the wrong embie?? ooooh, def going to your journal! That's crazy but I'm glad they course-corrected quickly!

rainy - oh so their growth will slow?? here I was calculating a 1/2 lb per week and thinking I"m going to be giving birth to 7-lb babies! I mean, maybe still, but yikes. And don't be too jealous of 2 head down - I think B flipped back up the other night. I have a rounded lump by my ribs again! He had his feet up to his face in the last scan, now I'm just picturing him doing backspins in there! M'boy's got moves!
Also, the twins are TWO?! Where did that time go?! What are you and DW doing for them this year?

miki - yeah, I don't know if there is much that can prepare us for the birth!! I am nervous about it too, it's almost all I can think about. I'm positive you'll be fine. That's awesome you got a doula! I was thinking about it - simply b/c I want DH to be able to freak out a little too and not have the pressure of calming me down. But I guess we don't need one now with a c-section! unless I want her to take pics
How have you been feeling this week? I hope that your past haunts don't harm too much and they can be washed away with this new and positive experience. Will you be at the same hospital?

Spud - how are you doing, friend? I hope you're ok. Been thinking about you.

terri - I am in both playoffs!! WHAT?? I'm never in playoffs! But I have Gronk in one of my leagues and he goes and takes that cheap, dirty shot and is out this week. Now I have to find a TE, this late in the season, that's going to help me?! Impossible!

Have a happy Wednesday everyone!

 

[Wish2BMom]

oh and rain - my new place of work doesn't have a formal 'maternity leave' (awesome...) so I'm cobbling together sick time, excused time, personal holiday time and STD to make hopefully 11 weeks. DH has 6 weeks of paternity plus a TON of PTO. I don't even start accruing vacation until Feb, I think!

 

[Rainshiny]

Miki- the good thing about giving birth is u can finally have good pain meds! Also, the nurses really know what they are doing and with a doula too you will do great.

Wish- wow you have a lot of kids of ‘times’! That’s great you can pull them together. I remember the movements towards the end- so bizarre right? Like squirrels and then like cats!!

We had a doula who forwarded our time to post-Partum help and did a few night shifts for us. Consider looking into night Nanny services cause they are a lifesaver! I think we did just once every couple weeks- expensive but worth it.

Ask- how u feeling? How’s your sister doing?

We r doing a little cupcake party for them. Been dealing w some poop issues and daycare issues which have been really trying.

 

[Rainshiny]

Ttc- how r u??

 

[Wish2BMom]

ugh yeah - this company is a little archaic in some of the things they have (or don't). They are moving to a PTO policy in 2019, thankfully.
I will have my mom and sister up for a bit after the babies are born too, so hopefully that will help. Depending on how the feeding goes, of course.
omg, totally like squirrels (which, your timing is funny b/c we are currently catching and releasing flying squirrels that are getting into our attic! we've caught 6 so far!)

Last night I was laying there trying to fall asleep and the babies were so rambunctious, they were moving the blanket on my belly. I could hear the swishing, like my cat's tail was moving or something. It was kinda creepy since no one else was in the room (I'm sleeping in the spare room now) but it made me laugh too.

 

[mikihope]

Thank you so much, Wish and Rain! I'm sorry I can't really write a personal reply right now as my head is exploding and I'm in shock... they want to induce me 2 days from now! That would be at noon on Friday.

My bile acid level came back at 12.1, which I was hoping was ok as it is still borderline and I still don't have any itching or any hint of symptoms. Instead, the doc immediately made an appointment for me to be induced on Friday. DH and I really want to postpone it at least a bit, but I don't really hold out much hope that we can ask for that. I really don't think I have cholestasis, but if I do, I know it can be scary.

I'm having a hard time now, as I just got the news on my voicemail not long ago. It's so weird that I've been getting worse and worse news as time goes on. Each time, I deal with things and feel happy and hopeful, and then I get hit with more bad news. It's really hard

We'll talk to the doc face to face tomorrow morning. We'll see if we can push the date to at least Monday, but if not, Friday it is. I'm so afraid and sad. I have no idea why I'm sad, maybe it's because I'm worried about gummy and how ready he is. I think it's also the fact that I've been really enjoying my time with gummy in my belly and how adorable his movements are. I wasn't prepared to lose that so soon. I'm excited to meet him, but I was unprepared for such an early date.

Sorry if this sounds incoherent, it's been quite a shock...

 

[Wish2BMom]

aw miki I'm so sorry you're so emotional right now. I completely understand, though. I almost cry when I look at my belly and think of when they won't be there anymore. I'm going to miss it so much. But you will have your gummy in your ARMS!!! looking up at his Mama finally!!

I have to say that personally, I'm happy they are inducing you on Friday! Then you won't have to worry about how your body is holding up for gummy. Gummy will be out in the world!! and 37w+ X days is GREAT! I HOPE to make it that far, but I don't see it happening.

Please let us know how it's all going today. And if you can't come on today b/c you're prepping and whatnot - GOOD LUCK TOMORROW!!!! And happy early birthday to Gummy!!!

PS - my bday is today so if you wanted the doc to actually move you UP a day, I'd be ok with that!

 

[Rainshiny]

Holy cow, Miki! What a whirlwind the last couple weeks have been for you. Sounds like your doctors are really on top of things! You’re in good hands and baby will do great. And so will you! Congratulations in advance And can’t wait to see some cute baby pics and happy mama pics after you give birth.

happy birthday wish!!!! You are going to get two little lovelies soon for your birthday. If your mom and your sister are coming that’s perfect because you need one adult per baby and a third to take care of you and a fourth to give the other three a break. It’s a village! LOL…Remember to PM me your address so I can send you the books. Do you have ‘what to do when you are expecting two’?

 

[Ask4joy]

Oh Miki, I’m sorry this is all happening so fast for you! I’m sure the doctors are doing what they believe is best but I can imagine how overwhelming this all is for you. You’ve been through a lot! I am sure all will be fine and you will forget about all of this once Gummy is in your arms!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WISH! Any fun plans?

Thanks Rain, I’m feeling ok. Was having constant mild cramps/twinges/pinches the last two days but not much today aside from a random cramp here and there. Breasts are somewhat sore but that started before the transfer due to the drugs/hormones. I feel like an emotional basket case. I’m trying to be positive but I’m so scared this won’t work even after all the testing and all we’ve been through. Doc said over 70% get a positive pregnancy test after transferring 1 PGS normal embryo but live birth rate is more like 60%. Please please please let me be in the 60%. For those of you that did IVF/FET, did you have any early symptoms?

My SIL is doing great actually. She is on the new trial drug and her last scan showed smaller tumors! She is off of oxygen and feeling really good! We know it’s not a cure but hope she can stay stable for a long time. Cancer treatment is really having so many breakthroughs. If this were 5 years ago, she would have already exhausted her options.

 

[Wish2BMom]

Thanks, girls!

rain - I'll PM you my address. I do not have that one, I don't think, but I can check when I get home. My friend who had twins gave me 4 books, but I can't remember which they are...

ask - I did IVF/FET and the times I was pregnant, I actually had less symptoms than I did when I wasn't! I felt so content and zen. My boobs hurt but I figured it was the meds too. This time, I had a wave of faintness actually the night of my transfer and then nothing, I don't think. It was weird b/c I was like 'that's way too early for implantation' but turns out, it could have been. Mine were BBs too, like yours, and looked like your picture. So my fingers are SO crossed for you!!
I think I've actually learned that during the TWW, it's kinda early for obvious symptoms to start. At least that's what I believe. I didn't have the heavier CM, the veiny boobs, any nausea (though I didn't have any of that at all!), the fatigue - all of that hit weeks later.
Just my humble opinion!!

oh and no fun plans, really! DH is picking up pizza from a yummy place around here we never get to and that's it. Dinner out tomorrow night with another couple but I don't think that's really for my bday. Just to get out before babies!

 

[terripeachy]

I miss one day and all the excitement happens!
Miki- things will be great today! I can't wait to see pics and hear your birth story. Congrats!! I'll be checking in later tonight.

Wish-sorry happy belated birthday!! I'm sorry I missed it. I'm glad you're enjoying your last few weeks with the boys dancing in your belly. And more importantly, why are you catching squirrels? It can't be safe, but I guess it's better that they are out of the house. Yikes! Congrats on playoffs!! In an winning this week so far but it doesn't count now! Grr. I saw the game where Gronk jumped on that guy. It was so late and intentional and dumb. These boys! Sigh.

Ask- won't get a chance to read your journal but there only symptom I had was that I almost felt like I was going to faint when I went upstairs. Once I found out is pregnant I was hungry all the time and a smidge forgetful. And then it was gone. when are you planning on testing?

Rain-congrats on the twins' birthday. And thanks for asking about TTC. I was thinking the same.

Hi everyone else! Happy Friday!!

 

[Wish2BMom]

terri - that's usually me with the late winning streak that doesn't matter! I'm sorry you had a stinky season. Every year when I end up like that, I'm like 'i'm tired of losing money! going to bail next year' but I never do. It's too fun.
squirrels - they are getting into our attic through the vents up there and chewing through the screen, looking for warm places for the winter. We've caught 10 now!! flying squirrels - they are actually super cute, but man are they abundant! And DH is doing all of that, I just look at them when he brings them down. We have humane traps he's setting up up there with peanut butter and sunflower seeds.

miki - THINKING OF YOU TODAY!! I hope all goes incredibly well and you have gummy in your arms soon!!

yes, TTC - where y'at??

afm - just scheduled my c-sec for 1/15!! CRAZY! a month and a week to go, if they don't surprise us sooner! My aunt said 'there's no way in hell' I'm making it to January. I will be surprised if I do too but hopefully even just that first week would be great (36 weeks). The less time in NICU, the better.

 

[Ask4joy]

Wish - 10 squirrels?! Oh my! I thought squirrels were fine outside in the winter...they seem to be here in Ohio! Congrats on setting your c-section date! It’s a good goal!

Miki - Happy delivery day and happy birthday to Gummy! Thinking of you!

Terri - Thanks for sharing! I’ve noticed a couple of times that I have felt winded going up the stairs but it had to be too early to be a symptom for me!

4dp5dt. Resisted the urge to test this morning. Breasts are very sore but normal for me when progesterone is high. No major cramping aside from the random twinges so far this morning but that could change. Seems to come in waves. Yesterday morning I woke up convinced it didn’t work then by yesterday evening I felt sure I was pregnant.

 

[Wish2BMom]

oh the fun psychosis of the TWW!!! it's enough to drive you off a cliff if you thought it would help!!

I think squirrels are fine outside, they end up nesting and huddling together. But these buggers found a nicer home so they are trying to stay indoors at Chez Wish for the winter while the other squirrels slum it outside.

 

[Ask4joy]

Haha Wish - those squirrels are living in the lap of luxury!

Update (Wish already knows this)...caved and tested this morning after an hour hold and got squinters on three different tests! Super early but baby girl implanted!

Oh and I had a crazy dream last night that I tried cocaine for the first time (what?!?) and then started freaking out saying, “what if I’m pregnant?!” I have no desire to try cocaine, for the record. LMAO.

 

[Rainshiny]

Wish are you sure you didn’t catch the same squirrel 10 times?? Haha, they are rascally and oh so cute. Are u getting the creepy crawlers now with squirrels inside you and out??

I just sent off a couple books. I would have sent sleep books but I seem to have given them away.

Ask- I only got a faint positive even at 8dp6dt. May be too early anyway. I did feel like something was different that month- my cm was different- watery, and I had a feeling something was up, but not til maybe 6dp6dt. Just a few more days and you’ll know!!

 

[mikihope]

Thank you so much Rain, Wish, Ask and Terri! I'm so grateful for your continued support, it has helped me tremendously We decided to go with the docs' recommendations, as they were quite serious about the risks to gummy. I leave for the hospital in half an hour, and I'm so incredibly nervous! My folks arrived last night, everything has been a whirlwind.

Congratulations on your squinters, Ask! Fx for darker and darker lines!

I've attached a photo DH took of my bump last night, one last one before I go in to hospital.

That's all my brain can handle for now... still packing some last minute stuff. Apparently early induction can take days to work, or if it doesn't, it will be a C-section at the end. So I've been packing as if I'll be in there for a week. Argh, I'm so afraid of induction!

 

[Wicky78]

OMG!! OMG!!

I was away for a couple of days and SO MUCH EXCITING NEWS!

Miki- I know you won't see this until you have your baby boy in your arms, but I still want to say how excited I am for you to be induced today. I'll be thinking good thoughts and sending lots of energy your way. I hope all goes well (and quickly!) and you can begin enjoying having your baby on the outside of your body

Ask - I am over the moon for you that your little girl embie implanted and is making herself cozy right now. I was like you when I got my BFP - there was a moment where I just thought for sure I was pregnant, but I couldn't really point to any definitive symptom that gave me that impression. I am so happy for you!

Wish - C-section scheduled for my MIL's birthday We'll all be waiting to see if you make it that far, but either way, I'm excited for you, too! By the way, Capricorns are great kids (okay, maybe I'm biased because I am one LOL) Oh, and I almost forgot that you're going to the playoffs in FF woohoo! On another note: the squirrels... we had some in our attic and they kept getting in over and over again until we found and patched EVERY hole. So I would recommend doing what you can to block their entry, or else DH will be trapping and releasing the same squirrels for the next 6 months. Also, if you can release them somewhere far away from your home, that helps, too.

MsR - glad to hear you and LO are doing well. Happy to hear from you!

Spud - so sorry to hear about your loss and the homesickness. I'm so sorry about the guilt trip your mom is placing on you. I hope you and DH can work something out to be able to spend time in NZ and in the UK so you don't have to feel so torn. I hope the girls are enjoying their time, but I bet they miss daddy, too.

Hi terri, hi Rain, hi Lee, hi everyone I missed!

AFM there's been a whole lot of status quo going on. Still sick a lot this week, but things are maybe looking up. Last night I had 2 hours of no sickness and today I only had morning sickness until about 10:30 am and have been feeling pretty good ever since (knock on wood). Since tomorrow I'll be 16 weeks, I'm hoping this is the last throes of the HG/Morning sickness stuff!

DW is back in MD with MIL. She is super stressed out because her mom was her rock, the healthy one who was going to live independently forever, but now it looks like she may need assisted living. Unfortunately, MIL doesn't believe that she needs help and also says she can't afford assisted living. So it's going to be a battle all the way and DW isn't really emotionally ready for that, although she is already planning to do whatever is needed to keep her mom safe. I feel terrible that I can't be there to support her and she feels guilty that she's not here to help me with all the pregnancy stuff. It's tough.

On top of everything else, DW's aunt (MIL's sister) had some kind of event on Wednesday evening where she stopped breathing and her heart stopped. They know what caused it, but aren't recommending treatment because of her age and health, as it would be surgery. So she's been in the hospital for two days and DW has had to handle that, too. I feel so bad for her. She doesn't know when she will be able to come home again, which is hard for me emotionally, but we both have missed so much work lately that we've exhausted our paid time off and are going to have smaller paychecks for a while. That is totally stressing me out, but there's nothing I can do, so I will make the best of it in terms of keeping up with bills, but Christmas presents may be super sparse this year.

Okay, sorry to be a bummer there, but I feel better after venting a little. I am still super hopeful that the morning sickness is on the way out and happy pregnancy is on the way in. I'm also very excited for Miki's impending baby and Ask's BFP. I'll at least be to see any updates!

 

[Rainshiny]

Ask- I missed you newest post—- hooray for early squinters!! Line porn, please?

Miki- so nice of you to update us amid all your preparations! You’ll be in good hands - everyone will coach you through it. Smooth like butter...bring out your inner zen rock garden. You can do this, hon!!!

Ack, hi Wicky!! I looped another big post. I can respond to your post after work more, but for now, hope the nausea keeps staying away for you!

 

[Wicky78]

Ask- I missed you newest post—- hooray for early squinters!! Line porn, please?

Yeah, line porn! There has been a distinct lack of it for a while now.