bfp - is this baby no 2 or loss no 5....?

[shirlls]

I had 2 early mcs before my little boy who is now 19 months, then I had a chemical and a mmc in past few months and I've just found out I am pregnant again.

I am having very bad cramps and sometimes they actually feels like contractions so I have a bad feeling it is a chemical pregnancy or going to end in miscarriage again.

It is torture, and even though I want a little brother or sister for my son, I keep thinking "what have I done!" and don't know if I am strong enough for all this

 

[kazine]

I'm sorry I hope this is your rainbow x

 

[laodicean]

I'm having the same issue, though I've only had three previous losses. Last week I was convinced that this baby was going to stick, mostly because it was a surprise and really not the right time to be having a second, therefore of course it was going to stick.

Now that I've accepted it, I've become convinced I'm going to lose it. I can't put my finger on why but it doesn't feel real anymore. I've still made a booking appointment with the midwife for next week, but something's making me think I'm going to end up cancelling it.

Had a tiny of amount of brown blood mixed with mucus this morning when I wiped, and am feeling crampy with niggling pains. Could equally be normal pregnancy stuff or it could be the start of the end.

Hate this. Just wish I knew either way.

 

[shirlls]

I'm having the same issue, though I've only had three previous losses. Last week I was convinced that this baby was going to stick, mostly because it was a surprise and really not the right time to be having a second, therefore of course it was going to stick.

Now that I've accepted it, I've become convinced I'm going to lose it. I can't put my finger on why but it doesn't feel real anymore. I've still made a booking appointment with the midwife for next week, but something's making me think I'm going to end up cancelling it.

Had a tiny of amount of brown blood mixed with mucus this morning when I wiped, and am feeling crampy with niggling pains. Could equally be normal pregnancy stuff or it could be the start of the end.

Hate this. Just wish I knew either way.

All the best of luck, I hope your pregnancy is successful! It is horrible, and I know what you mean about wishing you just knew either way xx

 

[shirlls]

I'm sorry I hope this is your rainbow x

Thanks xx

 

[laodicean]

…. and it's looking like loss number 4.

Ah well.

 

[RainbowBaby13]

@shirlls I am sorry for your losses xx and I'm praying that this is your second rainbow

@loadicean I am so sorry still keeping my FX for you hun

 

[shirlls]

…. and it's looking like loss number 4.

Ah well.

I am really sorry . Are you definitely sure? I hope you aren't going through loss no 4!! x

 

[cazi77]

I'm in the same boat pregnant for the 6th time! I had 4 losses then my daughter found out I was pregnant at the weekend so hoping it's baby number 2 for us!

 

[shirlls]

@shirlls I am sorry for your losses xx and I'm praying that this is your second rainbow

@loadicean I am so sorry still keeping my FX for you hun

Thank you xx

 

[shirlls]

I'm in the same boat pregnant for the 6th time! I had 4 losses then my daughter found out I was pregnant at the weekend so hoping it's baby number 2 for us!

I am so sorry for your losses and I hope this one is baby number 2 for you! xx

 

[laodicean]

…. and it's looking like loss number 4.

Ah well.

I am really sorry . Are you definitely sure? I hope you aren't going through loss no 4!! x

Started bleeding yesterday and it's getting heavier and starting to cramp. Stopped "feeling pregnant" yesterday evening. bHCG was only 437 today (6 weeks), and progesterone 3.

All in all, fairly conclusive proof that I'm shit at carrying babies.

 

[shirlls]

…. and it's looking like loss number 4.

Ah well.

I am really sorry . Are you definitely sure? I hope you aren't going through loss no 4!! x

Started bleeding yesterday and it's getting heavier and starting to cramp. Stopped "feeling pregnant" yesterday evening. bHCG was only 437 today (6 weeks), and progesterone 3.

All in all, fairly conclusive proof that I'm shit at carrying babies.

I am so sorry . Life can be so cruel sometimes

Hope you are as ok as you can be, my thoughts are with you. pm me if you need to rant or talk.

xx