Boycotting holidays...anyone else?

[Molae06]

So I have decided to boycott holidays and my birthday...and then I was told I was a selfish brat. Took my neice last year to an annual egg hunt in the park, I was pregnant during the time, miscarried about a week and a half later. Me and dh were so happy last year at that egg hunt, talking about how the following year we would have a little one to bring with us of our own. This year, we took my neice to the same egg hunt, it just wasn't the same. I was pissed off at all the families there, I was mean mugging all of the moms, it was torture. We still put on a show for my neice of course, but I don't think I can do it anymore.

I think from here on out I am boycotting holidays and my birthday, I don't see a point in celebrating years passing while going through hell. I told my family a similar version of what I just said and I can't remember who started it but someone mentioned it being selfish and "ruining it for everybody". I was once told that I could start being happy again once I allow myself to be happy....why is it easier said that done?

 

[heres_hoping]

Ouch. I understand where you are coming from completely, we lost our son 18 months ago and have been trying again for 14 months. I too find holidays very difficult, like you thinking, I should be bringing my son along too......

People were very understanding last year, now it's the second year and I think a lot of people are starting to think the way your family are, that I am choosing to be miserable and I should get on with it. I think, why would I torture myself, when just coping every day is hard enough?

People just don't understand how hard it is x