Can I join you, ladies?

[NikiJJones]

Hello,
Think it's about time I joined you over here. I started TTC in May 07, and nothing happened for a year. Then I got in May this year, but MCed at 6.5 weeks, and since then back to nothing. It is breaking my heart. I have days when I accept it and days when I feel really down. People keep telling me to relax and just let it happen, but I just CANNOT. I think about TTC ALL the time, and have done for 18 months now.
I've had hormone bloods done and they are all fine. In June they spotted an ovarian cyst on an ultrasound, but I went for another scan yesterday and it appears to have completely gone. Unfortunately, they also confirmed that I an definitely not PG this cycle, as they cannot see a corpus luteum. This has really knocked me for seven.
I am due for a Lap and Dye on November 11th and I was so desperate to get PG this cycle to avoid having it. Now I know it will go ahead, and I'm quite nervous about it.
All around me people are having babies and getting pregnant either by accident or first month of trying, and I am finding my infertility to hard to deal with. My SIL is due the same time my May baby would have been born, and she's been really cruel to me about it. That has made things even harder.
Anyway: that's the introduction.
Good luck to all of you on this board.

 

[bonfloss]

Hi Niki

I have read some of your threads on the ttc board so I know you have had a hard time of it. I am awaiting referral with gynae to get my tubes checked and am also hoping that I don't have to have it but as the months tick by it seems likely it will happen.

This board is great for getting some much needed support and advice. Keep your chin up.
xxxx

 

[rachelle1975]

Hey Niki!

Glad to see you made it over here!

Welcome

 

[hopeful4baby]

Hello Niki!

I'm not around all the time, but your post is very similar to me, with a difference that I had 2 m/c in 6.5 weeks. Last one in Feb 07, got pregnant both times with no trouble. Since then, completele silence. So many people have had their babies since. Some our almost 2years old. There are days when I am simply devastated..and yes, I've heard it all before: relax.. you are trying too hard.. like if such thing ever existed! In a really bizarre way, I am actually happy to take a month off. I'm so tired of TTC! Tired of everybody else's success but my own! And just like you, I've never prayed harder to get pregnant to avoid the lap, I even went for an acupunture the last 3 cycles.. no such luck.
I sincerely hope this is going to bring us some answers and most of all: our babies!!

hug

 

[maz]

Hi hun

Sorry you are joining us here - it's not somewhere you want to see too many people. I hope you feel a bit more comfortable here with us long termers, and hope you get your very soon.

Try not to worry too much about your lap & dye - I haven't had one myself but am sure it will be worth having done if it gets you some answers. And how horrible that your supposed family are being cruel to you about their impending birth and your trauma.

 

[NikiJJones]

Thanks for the wrm welcome ladies. Wishing you all the best with your TTC.

 

[Lilly123]

hey there hun!! glad you joined... you are the same point emotionally as me and TTC boards just dont fit anymore... lets hope we get that soon!

 

[miel]

Hi sweetie ...
looks like a lot of us are here now ...i feel better here myself as well
But may our journeys be short in here !

 

[pixielou]

Hi Nikki,

nice to see you over here hun!