HappiestMom
Spcl Nds Girl + twn boys + girl
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I ended up having an emergency c-section when wanted I wanted was a natural water birth..I know it was best for LO (turns out her cord was in a tight knot) and I was ok with it at the time because I was just caught up in it all...was only in labor for 7 hours before had to have Csection.....but now its come back to haunt me and its all I can think about..that and my hospital stay (hubby left me alone the 2nd and 3rd night because he was getting sick..is diabetic..and couldnt get any rest there) I just cant get over it now...I wanted to be able to push her out..hold her right away...I didnt get to hold her for 3 hours because it took a while to fix me up and then I was shaking so bad from the epidural that I couldnt hold her for another hour or two once back in the room... I just dont know how to get over it..or how I can get over it...Ive told my hubby how abandoned I felt since he wasnt there when I needed him..even though I had tons of nurses and stuff there for me..its just not the way I had thought any of it would happen...but he just doesnt understand... Ive always been a loner friend wise so dont have ANY close friends really to talk to about it..Im home alone with LO all day during the week while hubby is at work and the PPD is just killing me and getting worse and worse...and I know this is one of the biggest reasons for it..or atleast one of the things that sets of crying fits...