can't stop worrying...

[PrincessBoo]

Hi guys, Iv not posted in this forum before so Im not quite sure what to say, but any help, advice or reasurance anyone could give would be really appreciated right now. I hope what I have to say makes sense but I appreciate its a little difficult to explain thouragly
I had my second ectopic pregnancy in March this year, the previous was a few years ago, both at around the 6 week mark and both absolutely devistated me. My partner and I had planned for me to go back on the pill for 6 months after the last loss. Unfortunatly this didn't go to plan as I had my appendix removed just two months ago and with the stress of me being ill I ended up missing a week of pills whilst in hospital and I then decided not to go back to them. My assumption was that it would take us a while to conceive as we have struggled in the past, but just a month later it happened. My doctor believes that I am about 6 weeks pregnant and has booked me in for an early pregnancy scan on tuesday because of my history. For the past week or so I have been suffering with constant nausia (although I have not actually been sick) exhaustion, constant trips to the toilet and my breast are sore, my mum says these are all really good signs and I should stop worrying, but I cant. Im over thinking every little ache and pain (None of which are serious) and Im worried that if I do to much everything will go wrong, not good when I work as a waitress in a busy resturant. Im so scared that Im going to fail again, I can't wait untill tues to find out if everything is ok.
On top of all this Im also conserned as my partner and I are flying to Turkey on the 7th for a 10 day holiday and now Im seriously reconsidering going at all.
So I guess my questions are these: are the above symptoms reason to have hope? Or should I take more note of the little pains and not expect anything so as to protect myself from disappointment? Could my resent surgury mean I am likely to have another ectopic? And will going on holiday put me at risk if the scan shows that things have gone right this time?
Im sorry for the essay but Im so scared, we both want this so much I don't think I could cope with another loss.
Thank you for any thoughts you have

 

[Firefly83]

Congrats!
I don't think you should worry that much. However it is completely understandable as to why you might feel the need to worry. I don't think your past surgery would effect your pregnancy. Also if your scan goes well and your doctor has no objections I think a holiday might be helpful to relieve stress. Just take it easy

 

[PrincessBoo]

Thank you for your reply. The scan did little to put my mind at rest. During the scan the doc said everything looks ok, but going by sizes Im not as far gone as my dates suggest (she believes Im am just under 5 weeks not 6 and a 1/2 weeks) so she was saying its difficult to be 100% sure but theres no need to worry yet everything looks like it is where it should be, but I will need to come back in 2 days for another scan and round of bloods. After leaving I read the letter she gave to me just incase anything did go wrong and I did have to be rushed into hosp. This is when I start to worry. The letter states gestational age as 6 weeks 3 days, (not 5 weeks as I was told) it also says that my left ovary seems bulky and that an ectopic pregnancy is not yet completely excluded. So Im sat here going out of my mind waiting again for tomorrow to hurry up so I can hopefully get some answers

 

[Kellen]

PrincessBoo,

I feel for you. My DH and I experienced an ectopic pregnancy in February. It was honestly the hardest thing I have ever experienced. I noticed in your original post you mentioned that: "Im so scared that Im going to fail again." Sweetheart, you didn't fail. Neither one of your ectopics was your fault.

It sounds like you have all the classic pregnancy symptoms and are right on track! I'm glad that your doctor is treating you with extra-special care and giving you the attention that you need. During my first trimester I was in a constant state of worry regarding every little twinge or pain that I felt. Now I'm 16 weeks and I cannot believe it. I pray that you and your OH have a wonderful trip and that you are blessed with a happy healthy baby in a few months.

 

[PrincessBoo]

Thank you for your kind words, just a few hours till another scan hopefully Ill have some answers then!

 

[km12446]

I completely agree, a miscarriage of any kind is not a failing on your part...just stupid bad luck I'd say your symptoms are a good sign, did you have any symptoms when you had the ectopics? It's really common for dates to be out at the beginning. Have faith and I really hope that at your next scan you see the right amount of development and good blood work. Good luck my lovely xxx