Testing can be addictive. I know I say I’m over it now, but if AF is late it will probably all go out the window. I am excited about the OPKs, perhaps just as a novelty or part of my self science experiment. It may seem strange, but making it into a project appeals to me. Maybe it will allow me to get some distance, emotionally. Probably not though
I’m always here if you need to talk! Feel free to message or just post, as I am following this thread. I just realized I can do email updates when people respond, which is great! You are in Norfolk VA or UK?
I have no problem talking about my MMC. I was pg with twins and I’m pretty sure it happened when my symptoms suddenly subsided. I didn’t know it was twins at the time, actually until about a half hour before I found out they were gone. It was around 9 weeks and I found out at 12 when they couldn’t find a heartbeat. This was probably the first week of December, 2015. Since they were still there, I had to take meds to actually cause the MC. I think it was a bit easier to prepare myself for that knowing (to some extent) what was going to happen and when instead of it just happening naturally. It was so heartbreaking losing those little ones, but they just weren’t destined to be here with us. I’ll always remember them.
I was lucky in that things cleared out on their own, bled for probably three weeks (heavily the first week and then just spotting). By February things were back to normal with my cycle. It still hurts sometimes, but I have hope we can try again, and those little ones will always be in my mind. Before this all happened, I had purchased this framed print of two little songbirds, but never hung it up. Afterwards, I knew the print, at least to me, represented the twins, and I put it up above a nice canvas print of a forest. Now I look at the art and have some feeling of peace about it because they will always be with us in our hearts, and that energy is still somewhere out in the universe.