CD1 and onto year #2 of TTC

[PinkPeony]

Hi ladies. I've been drifting over here the past month or so. I love the TTC forum, but I'm starting to feel like I can relate a bit better on this board these days. Plus ppl keep breezing thru over there onto first tri just when you get chatting with them.

AF came this morning and I'm absolutely gutted. Had hopes up this cycle (silly me) bc I started spotting cd7 which kinda went away. Was hoping it was IB... Now I just feel broken. I must have a progesterone issue or something. But I don't even have it in me to sit around speculating about what's wrong.

At least now it's been a year TTC I can finally get a referral to a FS. Anyway.... sorry to be a downer just had to have a bit of a vent. It's one of THOSE days.

 

[Armywife84]

You love the TTC forum, really? I loathe it! Everyone else seems to get their joyous at 3 months, while you're in tears because it's month 12 and nothing!! Once you're on here for a while, you'll grow to despise that TTC section.

for your crap day. I'm not going to lie, as a LTTCer there will be plenty more of those to come. On the bright side, we have a amazing bunch of ladies on here who are here to support you on those days.

Now the next steps are for you to find a fertility specialist or a gyno who is qualified, and start the process of fertility testing. Then hopefully identify the issue and get a solution. When you're ready of course. It takes some mental reevaluating to get ready for this rough road.

GL, and welcome to our LTTC dark corner.

 

[PinkPeony]

thank you so much armywife! I spent most of the morning in tears but I'm putting myself back together again. Helps to know I'm not the only one even as I watch everyone around me get preg like it's just something you just think about and voila - baby 9 months later.

TBH I can see what you mean about the TTC forum. I'm not sure I can read too many more posts of - "hey I'm a little bloated - do you think I'm preg??" and then they ACTUALLY ARE! UGHHH. I get every "symptom" in the book every month and I haven't seen the faintest ghost of a line yet.

I'm definitely ready to get to a doc and get this show on the road. I know it won't be easy but it's got to be better than sitting around wondering why the heck we can't get preg.

 

[MrsCompass]

Hello PinkPeony - I hope you are feeling better. I do encourage to see your Doc like you said. It's better to know what is going. Sometimes, it's easy fix and sometimes, it's not but in the end ... you will get your BFP! We're here to support each other

 

[PinkPeony]

Thank you MrsCompass! I'm still keeping hope that I'll get my BFP eventually. It's just a harder road than it is for others for sure.

BTW - We're both in Toronto! Good luck with your IUI!!

 

[wanting2010]

It is hard to be on the regular TTC forums watching newcomers getting their BFP while you're still stuck in the hell of TTC.

I hope your stay in LTTTC won't be long!

 

[MrsCompass]

Thank you MrsCompass! I'm still keeping hope that I'll get my BFP eventually. It's just a harder road than it is for others for sure.

BTW - We're both in Toronto! Good luck with your IUI!!

Oh! I didn't even notice that you're from Toronto! We have some great Doctors around here and they're everywhere so whereever you are, I'm sure you'll find a Fertility Specilist conveniently located close to home or work.

I go to the one in Scarborough. Dr. Williams. She's AMAZING! Very personable, direct and to the point but what I love about her is that she's as aggressive as her patient and she's very positive!

 

[SKP]

I am almost going on 2 years, unexplained. Did US, HSGS, Clomid,SA, Progesterone, prenatals. Nothing yet. Doc says its due to infreqent periods.

 

[PinkPeony]

Thank you MrsCompass! I'm still keeping hope that I'll get my BFP eventually. It's just a harder road than it is for others for sure.

BTW - We're both in Toronto! Good luck with your IUI!!

Oh! I didn't even notice that you're from Toronto! We have some great Doctors around here and they're everywhere so whereever you are, I'm sure you'll find a Fertility Specilist conveniently located close to home or work.

I go to the one in Scarborough. Dr. Williams. She's AMAZING! Very personable, direct and to the point but what I love about her is that she's as aggressive as her patient and she's very positive!

I'm so glad to hear that!! Sometimes I wonder how that's all going to work with the public health care and all. I worry I'm going to have to wait for ages and then the doc will be spread so thin I won't be any kind of priority. I'm in the west end near High Park but hope I end up with a Dr like your's!!

 

[StephieB]

Welcome to the wonderful board that is LTTTC

I have to say I agree with Armywife, I HATE the TTC forum, it's probably because LTTTC has turned me into a bitter and twisted woman but I kinda see it in the same way I see the new girl at work. She waltzes in on her first day and acts like she knows it all, and is an expert on everything, when really I feel like slapping her shouting at her "When you've been here for two years, then you can say you know it all!"

I'm nice really I promise I reached 2 years TTC 3 months ago I think (I don't even count anymore) and we are also 'unexplained'. So far everything has come back completely clear. I have some days (usually around AF time) when I do get really down about it, and it still gets to me, but to be honest, I think as we get further and further down the line, I'm dealing with it better, and I don't cry as much.

One thing I do know about the LTTTC board is that it really is more personable than the TTC board, sadly not as many people coming and going I guess

 

[PinkPeony]

I am almost going on 2 years, unexplained. Did US, HSGS, Clomid,SA, Progesterone, prenatals. Nothing yet. Doc says its due to infreqent periods.

I know I shouldn't be griping yet on here at the 1 year mark. I think there's something about milestones that make things worse. I was the same when I turned 32 and was at the 6 month mark of trying. I was a puddle. Now I'm like 6 months?.. Pfft.

Unexplained is rough - I hate not knowing what the problem is. As far as I can tell everything is normal. I ovulate, pretty regular af, DH doesn't have any problem with drive... But I'm actually hoping when they test us for everything they'll find a problem that can be fixed so we can get on with it. Somehow I doubt it'll be that simple.

 

[PinkPeony]

Welcome to the wonderful board that is LTTTC

I have to say I agree with Armywife, I HATE the TTC forum, it's probably because LTTTC has turned me into a bitter and twisted woman but I kinda see it in the same way I see the new girl at work. She waltzes in on her first day and acts like she knows it all, and is an expert on everything, when really I feel like slapping her shouting at her "When you've been here for two years, then you can say you know it all!"

I'm nice really I promise I reached 2 years TTC 3 months ago I think (I don't even count anymore) and we are also 'unexplained'. So far everything has come back completely clear. I have some days (usually around AF time) when I do get really down about it, and it still gets to me, but to be honest, I think as we get further and further down the line, I'm dealing with it better, and I don't cry as much.

One thing I do know about the LTTTC board is that it really is more personable than the TTC board, sadly not as many people coming and going I guess

After the 6th month mark/my birthday I have been managing better in general... Not living quite AS MUCH month to month, and realizing I'm really in this for the long hawl. I'm generally waiting for medical intervention at this point and I shouldn't have fooled myself this cycle thinking that I could have done it on my own bc it ain't just happenin.



Thanks ladies for the warm welcome. I really need it today.

 

[StephieB]

After the 6th month mark/my birthday I have been managing better in general... Not living quite AS MUCH month to month, and realizing I'm really in this for the long hawl. I'm generally waiting for medical intervention at this point and I shouldn't have fooled myself this cycle thinking that I could have done it on my own bc it ain't just happenin.



Thanks ladies for the warm welcome. I really need it today

I completely agree with not living it month by month. In the start every single month would be a heart breaking blow, and would take me days to get over, and now it's just like "ok...here we go again". I've even got good at not paying any attention to what DPO I am, I just forget about it. My new goal is to have a baby/be pregnant by Christmas 2013, so until them I'm remaining pretty calm! (Gosh we'll be almost 4 years then)

I think I'm in the same place as you, I'm waiting for medical intervention to give us our first little one, so I'm not expecting anything until we get to the IUI or IVF stage, if anything happens before then I'll die of shock!