Christmas Angels

[Wishfull]

Well ladies this will be my last post for a wee while as wont be able to get on the computer for a week or so.
I just want to say i know for me and probably all you ladies xmas day an every day surounding it will be hard. Im not looking forward to smiling an saying merry xmas to people who think im ok and doing well. All i really feel like doing in lying in bed with a box of chocs an having a bottle of wine. And having a good old cry. But i know that wont be possible. All us ladies will be missing our babys. Missing the fact that some of us should be pregnant and that some of us should have our little angels with us on Christmas day. But i know and hope i will at somepoint feel my little angel with me. I will be thinking of my angel in moments when im day dreaming or fighting back the tears. Its been a horrible horrible journey for us all and i pray that none of us have to ever go through such heart ache again.
I like to think as we sleep on Christmas eve. Our little Angels are together planning what the will do the next day.I think they will all be saying "first im going to see mummy before she wakes up. Im going to kiss her cheek and tell her i love her and tell her merry christmas. And im also going to tell her not to feel sad today." Then i like to think they will go and visit the rest of the family that miss them very much too, even though they never mention the babys we lost.
God bless all you ladies, will be thinking of you all.
( if i dare say it)
Merry Christmas

Nina.
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[DaisyDuke]

Thank u hun made me cry i little i hope ur right about christmas morning before we wake and our angels are playing together, Merry Christmas hun, i hope it's not to painful for u. XXX

 

[WelshRose]

Oh Nina
In this limboland that I am in at the moment I can only try to begin and imagine what you and all the other wonderful ladies in this section are feeling and going thru.

My heart goes out to each and everyone of you for the angels you've lost.
You are all such amazing women, I can say this and mean it because of the response I've had to my own thread. It takes a very special person to be able to give support and reassurance to others when their heart is truly shattered.....Special people you all are
I will certainly have you and your angels in my thoughts this Christmas morning.

Massive and love to all.

 

[Rumpskin]

Bless, thanks for your post Nina.

Everynight when it gets dark, I look to the sky and this is the time that I feel close to mine.

I am worried that on Christmas day at lunch, I will start blubbing and dont want to spoil all the hard work and effort my mum has made.

I now have 16 days off work and I know this is what I am going to think about as time is on my hands.

I hope wherever our little beautiful angels are, they are happy and healthy oblivious to our pain.

Happy Christmas my darling and know that I am thinking of you too and feel your pain.

xxxxxx

 

[oxSarahxo]

I hope everyone can struggle to get through christmas and TRY to enjoy themselves.

It's only been 2 months since my little girl died and I'm still at her grave a couple of times every day. (1 month since my Grandad died).

I'll be going there on christmas day as usual and to my Nannas to keep her company since it hasnt been long since her husband died.

Like others I'm dreading Christmas. I was at my partner's friend's yesterday and she came out with something, not realising what she'd said probably... She asked if I'd got all my Christmas shopping done and I replied saying I had no one to shop for. She said 'oh youre lucky' .... I don't see how????? If anything I don't think that statement was further from the truth.

 

[ellie]

i pray too (to whoever's listening!) that everyone will be okay over xmas and that 2009 will bring much happier times.
i'm sure that people are mostly so wrapped up in their own 'stuff' they just don't think about what others might be thinking/feeling .... i hope you are okay oxsarahxo and everyone xxx
i'm not sure how i will get through it myself but will be trying to think of the future and imagining next year bringing joy and life.
will be happy to see the back of this year!

 

[Drazic<3]

Thank you so much, you made me cry, but your words were beautiful.
I hope our little angels are laughing and playing together.