[CLOSED] PAL - Due January 2013 with a Rainbow Baby

[Mrs S-M]

Thank you for the opportunity to join you lovely ladies.
Here is a bit about me:

Do you have any other children?
No
If so, tell us about them

EDD
January 9th according to the date of my last period but January 15th going from ovulation.

Tell us about your loss
We lost our first pregnancy last April at around 10 weeks. I had had no blood tests or scans at all by that point as my doctor said I had to wait for my first midwife appoint which I was one week away from. I just knew something was wrong- odd pains in my back and on my left side, so we went to A&E and sure enough I had lost the baby which began passing the next day. Since then we have struggled to get pregnant again. Recently being told I have low progesterone and am unlikely to get pregnant naturally. We had given up trying with a specialist appointment in 2 weeks time.

What makes you nervous about being pg again?
Knowing I have low progesterone, until I get it checked I have to be realistic that I could lose this baby due to that. I am also nervous because we made it to 10 weeks last time which seems a long way off right now.
To say the least the timing of this pregnancy is anything but perfect due to DH being very ill for the last year and a possible promotion at work. Regardless of this we are OVER THE MOON! and super excited!

What are your symptoms?
Nausea and feeling hungry all the time. Feeling very wet down there and lots of short sharp cramps particularly on my left side.

What's different about this pregnancy than the last one?
Not much really, we are much more 'ready' this time around and it feels less scary and more 'Oh my goodness how lucky are we!'

So yeah that's a little about me!

 

[Mrs S-M]

Girlinyork I am so sorry for your loss and so inspired by your strength. I wish you all the best in the future.

Tasha you have had such a rough ride of it, I really hope this little bean sticks for you and that you are able to enjoy this pregnancy.

 

[duckytwins]

Welcome, Michele! Glad to could join us! (Well, glad you're here, but sorry about the circumstances). Sending massive sticky vibes to you!

 

[Greens25]

Hey Jess,

I agree! I almost feel bad being worried sometimes, due to previous loss. I don't want to scare people who are experiencing their first pregnancy....

how is everyone feeling today?

 

[Mrs S-M]

Feeling so sick today. It's like i'm hungry but all of the time and no matter how much I eat I still feel sick constantly. I am hoping that this is a good sign and is just letting me know all is ok. How is everyone else doing?

 

[Mrskg]

:wave:

we're both 35 x (not sure about name i have an unual spelt name an its a small world esp in scotland not sure i want my neighbour knowing i check my cm )

do you have children
yes 3 daughters, 18 (away at uni) 13 (14 on 13th) & 5 x only youngest is x

EDD
16th january 2013 1 day after oldest daughters 19th!!!!

tell us about loss
i fell pregnant unexpectedly in april 12 x edd 31/12/11 x x never for one min imagined anything would go wrong x i had the worst ms started a week before bfp!! till 11+3 my bbs very really sore an i looked about 4months at 10 weeks an really bad headaches x ms stopped suddenly at 11+3 i had a feeling something was wrong but tried tothink it was because i was nearly 2nd tri x 11+6 started spotting x scan at epu confirmed only a 6 week sac x 2x failed medical managments over 3 weeks eventually passed naturally on 10th july at 15+2 (all being well) we were devastated an made us realise we wanted 1 more to complete our family x

joined bnb x

september 11 bfp 2 days after af was due x dd 27/5/12 x very faint knew something was up straight away started bleeding a few days later was in absolute agony x

oct 11 bfp 2 days before af was duex edd 26/6/12 x really thought it would be 3rd time lucky x got 1-2 on a digi went on hol for 5 days came bach digi said not pregnant tests still had a line betas saw hcg drop another angel x

dec 11 bfp few days before af x edd 26/8/12 x thought again surely we cant be unlucky again x got early scan at 8+5 baby looked fine an had a hb but sac looked tight x i googled when i got home an found this was not a good sign but still had hope x started spotting a week later scan revealed babys hb had stopped not long after first scan due to sac not growing x passed naturally 2 days later x

what makes you nervous about being pregnant again
everything! knowing that this is our last chance i couldnt put hubby through a 6th 7th 8th loss x

what are your symptoms
believe it or not ive had more on bfn months x i have a cold sore x my left nipple is sore to touch x wet feeling down below x belly cramps with trapped wind last 2 nights an maybe a bit constipated not been for couple of days (tmi) skin on face has gone darker i had mask of pregnancy with my youngest not sure how early it started though (great im gonna look dirty for next 9 months) backache when standing doing dishes x def not my normal bfp sign really thought i was out this month due to lack of symptoms x my af came 5 days early last month on cd20 i actually hoped it was my body resetting an getting ready for a bfp never thought id be right x

what is different about this pregnancy
too early to tell x

good luck everyone sending loads of sticky all round xxx

 

[duckytwins]

Welcome Mrskg! I'm hoping for a sticky bean this time!

How's everyone else doing? Should we close the thread at some point and have a small group? Let me know your thoughts.

 

[Mrskg]

im still getting my head round it not even told hubby yet told him i feel funny an will test in the morning x wanted to see how he reacted to that x he was really laid back an said well ive been expecting it surprised it took this long!!!!! (3 cycles)

oh i never knew you could close a group x would maybe be good then you really get to know people x im happy whatever you decide x

how are you feeling? x

 

[duckytwins]

You know what I've been thinking.... I think it kinda sucks that we have to do so much worrying about our pregnancies when other people who've never had a loss can go about their, worry-free. Like blissfuly ignorant, while every pain, symptom, lack of symptom, feeling, spot of pink or brown, etc. makes our hearts sink.

Sorry to be so down, I just was thinking how unfair it is and I'd give anything to not have to worry...

 

[Mrs S-M]

I agree it would be nice to keep the group small and really get to know everyone
How is everyone doing today?

 

[Mrskg]

i agree ducky that innocence is lost on a good note

BFP on frer!!!!

 

[Mrs S-M]

Yay congratulations Mrskg! Lets hope this bean is a stick one

 

[Greens25]

CONGRATS Mrskg! Welcome!

Jess, I like the idea of a small group!

I also agree with what you had to say Jess. There was a girl at my work that announced to the world, facebook, work, etc. at 5 WEEKS that she was pregnant and everything is FINE! Meanwhile, I will clear the 12 week mark before summer break (I am a teacher) but don't even want to mention it to work until I get back in September and it will be very obvious because by then I will be like approx 21 weeks! When people do that I just want to be like aren't you scared?!?!?!?!?! but of course I never say anything. then there is me, like you said, every symptom, lack of symptom makes me worry! arg!

 

[duckytwins]

i agree ducky that innocence is lost on a good note

BFP on frer!!!!

YAY!

 

[Mrs S-M]

CONGRATS Mrskg! Welcome!

Jess, I like the idea of a small group!

I also agree with what you had to say Jess. There was a girl at my work that announced to the world, facebook, work, etc. at 5 WEEKS that she was pregnant and everything is FINE! Meanwhile, I will clear the 12 week mark before summer break (I am a teacher) but don't even want to mention it to work until I get back in September and it will be very obvious because by then I will be like approx 21 weeks! When people do that I just want to be like aren't you scared?!?!?!?!?! but of course I never say anything. then there is me, like you said, every symptom, lack of symptom makes me worry! arg!

I'm a teacher too and will also be waiting until September before allowing it to become common knowledge.

 

[Jingles23]

Super sad today. Took another hpt today hoping to get a dark enough line that I'd feel comfortable calling my OB today. BFN!!!!! Blah, I'm crying right now. Not sure if Saturday's test was faulty or an evap or if I just had another chemical!!
This sucks. I was so excited. Kept telling myself not to but still did.

 

[duckytwins]

Oh Hilary, no!!! Sweetie, I'm so sorry

 

[Jingles23]

Thanks Jess. I was just really excited to finally be pregnant again and hoping this one would go well.
How are you doing?

 

[Tasha]

Oh no, I am so sorry hun x

 

[Mrskg]

Big jingles xxxx