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[tdog]

@MrsKatie I love your comment I should have said that one, I mean if I put on social media all I get is "another one" and I say yea none of your dam business if I want to have 8 or 18 its me raising it back off xx

 

[PinkCupcakes]

Hey ladies, I’m trying to be patient while waiting for my genetic screening results (NIPT) I’m nervous! Ugh I hate waiting

 

[MrsKatie]

@PinkCupcakes waiting for results has become my nemesis. They need to invent pregnancy-safe Xanax for times like these!

AFM, baby measuring perfectly to my dates with heart rate of 145!

 

[MrsKatie]

Oh no @RedRose19 i am so so sorry.

 

[tdog]

@PinkCupcakes waiting is the hardest thing ever xx

@MrsKatie well hello little bean what a lovely sight to see so happy for you xx

I have a scan booked (private scan) for the 28th so my 5 year old daughter can come as she is the most excited out of all the kids lol xx

 

[PinkCupcakes]

@PinkCupcakes waiting for results has become my nemesis. They need to invent pregnancy-safe Xanax for times like these!

AFM, baby measuring perfectly to my dates with heart rate of 145!

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Awww I’m so happy for you!!! Look at the little nugget!!!

@PinkCupcakes waiting is the hardest thing ever xx

I have a scan booked (private scan) for the 28th so my 5 year old daughter can come as she is the most excited out of all the kids lol xx

Awwww! That’s so sweet I bet she will love that! And yes the waiting sucks! lol


Speaking of waiting I got my results today!!! Who wants to guess my gender????

 

[tdog]

Awww I’m so happy for you!!! Look at the little nugget!!!



Awwww! That’s so sweet I bet she will love that! And yes the waiting sucks! lol


Speaking of waiting I got my results today!!! Who wants to guess my gender????

I want to say girl but no good at ramzi theory where as nub theory I'm better at lol xx

 

[RedRose19]

Awww I’m so happy for you!!! Look at the little nugget!!!



Awwww! That’s so sweet I bet she will love that! And yes the waiting sucks! lol


Speaking of waiting I got my results today!!! Who wants to guess my gender????

im gonna say girl

 

[Laurabub84]

Sending virtual hugs. This sounds really difficult. I would sit dh down and have an open honest conversation with him. I believe that it’s very rare to regret having another child but it is so common to regret not having one more. When a baby arrives in the world, people tend to forget that they didn’t think you should have another baby. And if they don’t - then personally they are not people I would want in my life. It’s your life, your family and no one has a right to pass judgement. X

Thank you for your comment. I always think that too, that you never regret the children you have but you could the ones you don’t. I don’t think dh would feel regret about not having another unlike me tho. We have 6 kids and in our family/friend group we’re such the odd ones out because they all (siblings/cousins/friends) only have 1 or 2. I originally only planned on 3 as I’m one of 3 but I just love being a mum so much. I don’t know what I’ll do with myself when I don’t have a little one anymore. I hate thinking about it. I’ve just turned 41 so I know my times almost up and it’s killing me. I’m constantly slated for how many children I have already. Dh tends to have the attitude of not caring what other people think but I do let others opinions get to me. I can’t go out and bump into people without them constantly asking if I’m pregnant again and the are you done now? Are you sure? Comments. Also the ‘dont you have a tv at home?’ and ‘you must be at it like rabbits’ Makes me want to scream. I’ve always suffered long anovulatory cycles but because I have 6 kids people believe he just looks at me and I’m pregnant. That nots been the case. I’ve had heartbreaking times ttc so when I’ve finally fell my happiness is quickly damped by others. When I had my missed miscarriage before my last baby instead of sympathy I just got comments like ‘maybe it was for the best’ and ‘obviously it had something wrong with it and miscarriages are common when you reach late 30’s and 40’s. When I fell with my rainbow my parents acted surprised and said they didn’t think I would want to try again after losing one. I wouldn’t want to tell anybody if I fell pregnant again because they have a way of making me feel ashamed. It doesn’t stop me wanting to tho. His family like to keep ‘joking’ at him that he needs to hurry up and get the snip before I want another and they do it in front of me and laugh. Worst was when his sister commented to me before his grandmother passed away last year that she said when they visited her in the hospital she said she wanted him to have a vasectomy. She laughed and said he has to do it now because it’s her dying wish. Even at a time like that they had to throw that at me. I tried so hard to bite my tongue and laugh along because I was already at that time struggling with my feelings for another. I don’t know how I kept from crying there and then. I got really upset when I got home but when I told dh about it he got angry at me and said they were joking ffs and like I was being ridiculous getting upset about it. I’ve told nobody that I long for another. I couldn’t bare for anyone to know.

im sorry to hear that laura, im in a similar way in that i have this weird burning need to have one more, dh isnt saying no but hes not pushed either but the rest of my family are saying dont have anymore now and its so off putting. i hope either way your body comes to peace, i dont want to make this about hormones but i could imagine it could have a part to play in all this. maybe talking to a dr or a therapist about your burning desire could help?

My family would be the same if they knew. Sometimes my younger ones ask if I’m gonna have another baby and if they say it in front of anyone like my parents they’ll quickly say your mum doesn’t need anymore kids. I’m sick of people thinking they have the right to tell me how I can live my life. I’d understand if my children weren’t cared for or out of control or if I couldn’t cope but it’s not like that at all. My kids are all loved and cared for. My 4 year old is going through a boisterous stage at the moment but he’s a 4 year old little boy with a lot of energy. He can be a handful at times but kids can be like that. My eldest went through a stage of being a diva when she was younger but she grew out of it. It’s normal for kids to test boundaries. It’s almost like they forgot themselves what it’s like to have young kids themselves. Just because I’m not like them and happy to stop at 2/3 kids I’m constantly judged about it. When my brother had his second baby my parents were so excited but when I had my 5th after it was like, oh another one. I don’t even understand why my parents look at it as not normal when my dad is one of six and my mum is one of eight. Once you hit baby number 4 no one seems to be happy for you after that. It’s really sad and it always breaks my heart for my unborn baby at the time that they don’t get the same excitement for them as the others. Every baby is a blessing imo. But people try to make you feel ashamed about it I’ve found personally.

@tdog I am dreading the reaction of my parents to this baby, if all goes well. It’s amazing what people say. I wanna be like, ok well when baby is born you can tell me which one of my kids shouldn’t be here. Just look at them and hug and snuggle them and then tell me who shouldn’t have been born. EYEROLL.

@Laurabub84 oh honey I’m so so sorry. DH was hesitant with this baby after seeing all the losses, he was worried to see me go through another one and concerned about genetic abnormalities with our ages, and it felt not awesome being the one driving the train so hard, but also some decisions one spouse makes a little more than the other, if the other person is willing to follow his/her lead a bit. Lean in and talk but don’t beg, just see where he’s at, it doesn’t sound like he’s dead set against another baby. I’ll be praying honey. I really truly know the feeling.

My parents would be the same as yours. If by some miracle I did get blessed for one last baby I wouldn’t want to tell anyone. I would just want to stay in my happy bubble by myself. I don’t think its going to happen for me again tho. He seems dead adamant he’s done. I just wish the feeling would go away so I could close this door in my life. It’s just so hard to.
I really hope things continue beautifully for you with your pregnancy. I’m so pleased for you and to hell with anyone’s negativity about it. Your baby is so precious. It doesn’t matter how many children you already have. If I ever had another I believe this time I would finally stand up for myself and tell people they can keep their horrid comments to themselves, and that includes my own family. I’m tired of taking it off people now and we not even trying for another. They don’t realise how badly their comments about having another baby or offering to bring round a couple of bricks to sort dh out affects me when I’m so desperate for one last baby. They think they’re being funny but I don’t find it the least bit funny. I go away feeling so awful. To them the conversations forgotten when they walk away but I’ll go home and sit and cry about it. I keep telling people no, we’re done, because I know that’s what they want to hear but I don’t feel done. Not at all

 

[cheerios]

@Laurabub84 Hi hun, I wanted to post in your journal but I can't seem to find it anymore. I truly know how it feels to want one more but DH being dead set against it. I had this limbo for 4 years before God changed my DH's mind. Actually I kept praying for God to take away my desire for a 5th because my DH made it very clear he will never have another baby with me. It was so tough but I started to sell baby clothes because I was so certain that another baby was not in the cards for me.

TBH, at one point, I was sooo desperate that my time was running out that I started googling for sperm donors!!! I was soooo upset with my DH for not being on board with me. But most sperm donors are Middle Eastern men and I couldn't bear the thought of my baby looking sooo different from his siblings and of course there's the topic of hereditary diseases / faulty genes. Ahhhh.... also, its about 1,000€ for each donor sperm. (No judgment here please, I'm just being very open). Anyway, I knew I would never go for a sperm donor, I just wanted to explore my options.

But I had a chemical even though we were actively preventing a pregnancy, I think it was back in 2021. After that chemical, my DH realised he was actually quite open for another baby. It was hard for me cos I "lost" my 4 fertile child-bearing years from 36-40. You know I had a second-trimester loss in December 2022 and spent one year trying to heal my thyroid which I'm sure was the cause of repeated miscarriages.

I conceived my 5th when I just turned 41 and since then, I've started noticing a lot of women who had babies in their 40s. I had to throw all my preconceived notion of wanting to be done with babies before 35. I really never ever thought I would be a 41-year old mom. And now that my 5th is born, I just love him so much (he's such a darling and easy baby) and my DH loves him so much that we're even toying with the idea for a 6th. My main reason is that baby #5 has a 6-year age gap with the next sibling and it does seem like he might grow up as an only child since the others have other interests. My other 4 kids have a 2-3 age gap each. They all still love and adore him right now, but that's also cos he's a baby. I don't know if anybody would really play with his / his toys when he's a toddler or gets older iykwim.

Tbh, we really were hoping for a second girl with our #5 and I was pretty surprised he's a boy, cos I kept having girl vibes during the pregnancy. We waiting till birth to find out. But I got over the gender disappointment pretty fast because I could bond with my baby after I gave birth to him.

IF we do go for a 6th, I don't have any hopes for a girl anymore! I'm 99.9% sure it's gonna be a boy and I'll just be happy that our 5th baby has someone to grow up with him. BUT I'm still not certain if we should go for a 6th, because I'm already 42 (I turn 43 in December). But I'd like to make use of the fact that I'm healthy and my thyroid has stayed healthy throughout pregnancy and postpartum. Also, I'm still breastfeeding a lot (baby is almost 8 months old) and I don't know how being pregnant is going to affect my milk supply. My periods came back 1 month postpartum and I know that I'm ovulating regularly because I have all the symptoms and my gynae even scanned me once and said that if I don't want to get pregnant, I need to use contraception because he could see that my ovaries were ovulating at my 6 week appointment!

We could chat privately if you'd like!!! I could pass you my cellphone number and we could chat on WhatsApp!