Desperately sad at my baby growing up :(

[friskyfish]

Hey ladies,
As you can see from the title, my baby isn't really a baby anymore, in September he will be 1!

I'm feeling so sad about this, time is slipping away so fast, I just want to hit the pause button.
I've just been in my little man's room to check on him & I'm now in tears. I love him so much, I just wish he could stay little for a little bit longer.
I'm almost 36, so I probably won't have any more. I think part of me is sad, knowing that this is the last time I will be doing this.
No more pregnancy, no more breastfeeding in the early hours , stroking & mesmerizing every curve on his little face, winding him & sniffing his head as I lay him back down. The sadness is immense.

Don't get me wrong, he's amazing now at 11 months old, everyday he surprises me with the new things he is learning. Everyday I love him more. His character is growing & I love him so much. My eldest is 11 & starts high school in September, that is also making me sad.

Does anyone else feel this way? I love being a mum so much, I would love another. It just seems like yesterday I could hold him on my forearm, I've no idea how he has got so big so soon? Time is moving too fast.
What's wrong with me? Please tell me I will feel better about this & this sadness will dissappear Xx

 

[Ashley1021]

My DS will be one in September also. I am so sad about it! I look at pictures of when he was hours old and just cry. It's so sad. But it's also so happy! His independence is growing everyday and he makes me so proud when he does something new!
I am 22, and my oh and I plan on having another when we are finically stable, but my first born will never be little again and it makes me so sad!

 

[Literati_Love]

You're not the only one. I find it very bittersweet. I love the little person she is growing into, but feel so sad that it is flying by so fast. It is my dd's first birthday today, so I am feeling extra sad (but also happy) today.

 

[friskyfish]

Awwwwww I hope your daughter has a wonderful first birthday xx

Glad I'm not alone in feeling like this x

 

[george83]

I feel like this with all of mine, my oldest has just turned 4 and is about to start school and I'm so sad that he's grown up so quickly

 

[friskyfish]

Oh bless you, I remember my eldest first going to school, he starts high school in September. His primary school leaving assembly was a few weeks ago, as you can imagine, I cried my eyes out!

My husband won't let me have another! He says in a few years....but I'm 36 in December! It's now or never haha xx

 

[bcos21]

I struggle with the bittersweet sadness of my son growing up a lot 😢

 

[AK89]

Totally normal (I hope!)

I'm always super conscious of how fast she's growing up and it makes me sad too. It doesn't help that that's what everyone always goes on about!! "Ohh she'll be in school before you know it.." I know, STOP REMINDING ME!!

I just try to soak her up as much as possible! Really try to savour every moment. I try not to get frustrated when she's in a bad mood, I try not to spend too much time with my eyes glued to my phone or in front of the TV.

It doesn't help that this is our first and likely to be our last I had always planned on more than one, but since having her I just can't imagine having another baby and having to divide my attention and love between the two.. Also I've been suffering quite badly from postnatal depression/anxiety and I don't know if I could voluntarily put myself through this again, with an older child as well! I just don't know if I could do that to myself, my daughter or my boyfriend, let alone a newborn baby! If I do have another it won't be for a GOOD few years, until Mia is a lot more independent. So I always bear that in mind and it does make me sad.

You're not alone!

 

[Enasy]

My son will be 1 in September too and everyday I see him doing something new it reminds me how much he has grown seems ages ago he was a tiny baby in my arms. its like time is flying by and and trying to remember as much of it as possible. im 33 and hubby is 37 so we still have time for another hopefully