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Diary Entry #1
I hate PCOS & Hypothyroidism. It pisses me off. Month after Month, I get crosshairs only for them to be taken away and declared an annovulatory cycle. Every month I get my hopes up thinking I really ovulated this time.. just to be disappointed.
I have two beautiful sons that I am very thankful for. My oldest is four and was conceived my first month of Clomid. My second was conceived during my "fertile" period Post Partum. Maybe I should just call my doctor and ask for more Clomid & Provera. I really wanted to conceive naturally. I know it sounds weird, but sometimes I feel like less of a woman because I can't have a baby without assistance. We will only have three children, and really praying for a babygirl. As a woman, I want a daughter to share my future life with, along with my sons. I just know when they grow up, they'll find their own wives who have their own mothers. Whoa.. getting really off track here.
Anyway, when I conceived my first and second actually, I NEVER had any fertile CM, like at all. Last two months I've had GLOBS of EWCM.. so that has to mean something right? Last cycle, my doctor upped my dosage for hypothyroidism. Blood work shows my hormones are pretty stable for PCOS, so I'm hoping my body is trying. Usually, my temps are all over the place, erratic and meaningless. Last cycle, I had a small temp rise that looked like my body was *trying* to ovulate along with GLOBS of ewcm. I was so excited, I literally sat in the bathroom taking pictures of my abundance of stretchy cervical mucus. But then I didn't ovulate.. and I was disappointed. I had one day of light menses, which usually my periods come and go within a blink of an eye.. cycle #2 with my double dosage of Armour Thyroid and I had even more GLOBS of EWCM on cd8, watery on cd9, and a small amount of ewcm on cd10. Crosshairs for cd9. Previous cycles my temp are always low. When I conceived my first son, my temp never went above 97.8-98.0 My post O temp around 2 & 3 dpo was 98.6- I was so surprised.. The relief of seeing such a high temp on my stupid little purple and white thermometer had me so happy at 4am I couldn't go back to sleep.. I was on cloud 9, for two days in a row.
I find myself so excited to go to sleep just to temp the next morning. I had a huge temp drop on 5dpo, if I am even DPO, but temp shot back up this morning. I hope my PCOS or HYPO doesn't come back this cycle just to trick me, and laugh for actually expecting to ovulate on my own.
Anyway, the EWCM, has to speak for something.. so FX it means I am getting close. Ive been TTC #3 since May 2013.. if I don't succeed in six more months, I suppose I'll go to my OB and get the prescriptions..
I hate PCOS & Hypothyroidism. It pisses me off. Month after Month, I get crosshairs only for them to be taken away and declared an annovulatory cycle. Every month I get my hopes up thinking I really ovulated this time.. just to be disappointed.
I have two beautiful sons that I am very thankful for. My oldest is four and was conceived my first month of Clomid. My second was conceived during my "fertile" period Post Partum. Maybe I should just call my doctor and ask for more Clomid & Provera. I really wanted to conceive naturally. I know it sounds weird, but sometimes I feel like less of a woman because I can't have a baby without assistance. We will only have three children, and really praying for a babygirl. As a woman, I want a daughter to share my future life with, along with my sons. I just know when they grow up, they'll find their own wives who have their own mothers. Whoa.. getting really off track here.
Anyway, when I conceived my first and second actually, I NEVER had any fertile CM, like at all. Last two months I've had GLOBS of EWCM.. so that has to mean something right? Last cycle, my doctor upped my dosage for hypothyroidism. Blood work shows my hormones are pretty stable for PCOS, so I'm hoping my body is trying. Usually, my temps are all over the place, erratic and meaningless. Last cycle, I had a small temp rise that looked like my body was *trying* to ovulate along with GLOBS of ewcm. I was so excited, I literally sat in the bathroom taking pictures of my abundance of stretchy cervical mucus. But then I didn't ovulate.. and I was disappointed. I had one day of light menses, which usually my periods come and go within a blink of an eye.. cycle #2 with my double dosage of Armour Thyroid and I had even more GLOBS of EWCM on cd8, watery on cd9, and a small amount of ewcm on cd10. Crosshairs for cd9. Previous cycles my temp are always low. When I conceived my first son, my temp never went above 97.8-98.0 My post O temp around 2 & 3 dpo was 98.6- I was so surprised.. The relief of seeing such a high temp on my stupid little purple and white thermometer had me so happy at 4am I couldn't go back to sleep.. I was on cloud 9, for two days in a row.
I find myself so excited to go to sleep just to temp the next morning. I had a huge temp drop on 5dpo, if I am even DPO, but temp shot back up this morning. I hope my PCOS or HYPO doesn't come back this cycle just to trick me, and laugh for actually expecting to ovulate on my own.
Anyway, the EWCM, has to speak for something.. so FX it means I am getting close. Ive been TTC #3 since May 2013.. if I don't succeed in six more months, I suppose I'll go to my OB and get the prescriptions..