did you keep my seat warm ladies?

[mkmum]

i was wondering if i should take my son to my first proper booked scan. well, i did take my son with me to my scan yesterday, oh how i regret it. he had to sit there and instead of seeing his new sister or brother, had to listen to the sonographer tell me " im very sorry.blah blah blah" there was no heartbeat . he had to sit and watch me fight back tears for 3!!!! hrs while they pissed about telling me whats gonna happen next.have ERPC booked for thursday but have to have an app with the bloke thats gonna knock me out, (cant be arsed to spell it) cause i have bad heart palpatations so they gotta asses me before they do it. got home and couldnt face going indoors (living with mil) so OH asked if i wanna go see my mum in kent, so off we went, just as we got here i went to tiolet and i have already started bleeding!!!! isnt the mind an amazing thing???!!! LO obviously had gone just after last scan, but now i know it has gone its like my body is saying to me... look, now you know you can accept it, so i just gonna go ahead and let go. i really really hope its just my cervix being irritated by the internal scan and not the "start". i really dont think i could cope with the pain, i have heard its very very painful, and how do i cope with the amount of it!?!?! . its just not fair!!! oscar has been so good, he keeps coming up to me and kissing me and stroking me, i know he means well, but all he can think of to say is , well atleast you wont have to get up in the night!! lol, he is 7 btw!! also this is only the second time i have seen OH cry. im lost and broken hearted.

 

[Freya]

I'm really sorry about your baby. It's unbelievably shit, unfair, unjust and painful. I've had a missed m/c too, with ERPC. In fact it'll have been a year next weekend. I can tap into the pain like it was yesterday!! Nothing anyone says or does will really be right..... just keep OH close and let him know how you feel. I regret pushing my OH away at that time.

Bless your little boy! It's amazing how he knows how devastated you are. I'm quite sure he wont remember much of the scan experience himself as it sounds like you were very strong for him.

Feel free to PM anytime hun. Look after yourself xxxx

 

[x_Rainbow_x]

you no im here 4 your hun. i no how u feel and its still very fresh in my mind.
stay strong sweetie
xxx

 

[Snowball]

I'm so so sorry hun xxxx

 

[tillymum]

I am so so sorry for your loss, your story is very similar to mine and i can totally empathise with your loss and pain. I'm devastated for you.

 

[mkmum]

thankyou ladies, im sorry for all your losses.

 

[cuddles314]

I'm so so sorry for your loss xx

 

[Barneyboo]

Just wanted to say sorry again, I have just had my 2nd m/c on Tuesday x x x for all of you x x x

 

[Logiebear]

I am so sorry for your loss hun xxx

 

[tansey]

Sorry for what yo've had to go through. Bless you LO and OH! xx

 

[coccyx]

Its shit isn't it?? Sorry do not mean to offend. So sorry for your loss, sounds like you have a great son and oh. I have a history of recurrent miscarriage. They were all natural and have to say that they varied in severity. Take painkillers before you get uncomfortable, found a bath helps. Thinking of you. You know we are all here for you.

 

[Suzanne]

Im so sorry for your loss sweetie!

 

[superp123]

So sorry for your loss hun. Sending
P

 

[NikiJJones]

Oh, I just found your thread, and I am so, so sorry to hear this. After all the pain you went through weeks back, to have found hope again, and now this.
You must feel crushed.
Words cannot help, but sending to try to comfort you.