Do you ever feel ...

[Farie]

Like your standing still while everyone else moves forward?

That making a baby has come down to tests, procedures and consults with men in white coats (and no .. I don't mean the ones from the asylum .. they are a different set!)
Where did the good old hanky panky go?

As if your missing some TTC secret that everyone else has?

Cheated by a system that was slow to act, slow to inform and made you feel like you had to beg for help?

Blahhhh .... having a bad day

 

[helen1234]

awwwww hun i hope happens for you soon



xx

 

[peekaboo]

Yeah I feel like that. I always imagined myself and hubby would just do the things that couples do, then one day soon I'd start to feel sick, realise I'd missed my period, and get all excited about the possibility of being pregnant, then do a test together, and nine months later out would come our baby.

A year and a few months later I'm now losing hope of it being like that which makes me feel sad. And jealous of the people that do have it like that. Sorry if thats bad, but just wanted to let you know that I know how you feel. x

 

[Nathyrra]

I think.. for me, if I feel like there's a steady progression with my treatment I feel less angry, less jealous and less cheated. But who are we trying to kid ey? It's never like that. We always have to wait on a hospital to decide if we're going to be 'happy' that day or not. They hold our little happy lives in their hands and they just file it away, prospone your dreams, treat you like you are an amaeba.

I was supposed to start my treatment last Wednesday but the doctors found a large Cyst on my Ovaries and decided to put me on birth control instead. I feel like I should never get excited, never be happy in this big unfair game of chance, because no matter what I'm never going to get what I want.

If I ever get out of this whole experience alive, I doubt I will ever be the same 'happy-go-lucky' person again.

I've never met a single woman whose been down this LTTC road that hasn't deserved a child. Never. There's no justice, there's no closure. No explanation.

 

[Farie]

 

[TrixieLox]

Yes, I definitely feel this way. The only way I try to make up for it is by trying to move forward in other areas of my life. But still, it sucks. Big time.

 

[beauty]

YEP i feel like i am no further on then i was this time last year.. I try to move forward with other bits going on in my life, but in my head the TTC journey is always eating away at me!! Never seem to stop thinking about it!!

I was generally feeling happy when i went to my last gyno appointment, until they lost all results and SA results we have to repeat it all.. they confirmed i need a hsg scan which they forgot to book me on for and now I have to wait till October!!

I am not thinking positive anymore, everytime i start to something knocks me back down a peg or maybe two pegs, so i am now going to approach all appointments with my consultant as getting no where fast!!

xx

 

[sparkle83]

I vary tbh. I've been at this nearly ten years, and sometimes I have felt like I'll never get there, that each day has dragged and dragged.
I also have times when I feel that my little boy or girl is just around the corner. In many ways, being around my niece has helped this. Holding her, the reality of a baby is very different than the fantasy I've had so many years. Yes, a baby is a miracle, but I think I've made motherhood and having a baby so perfect, so amazing that it seems out of my limits. Does that make sense?

I'm a big believer that the psychological part of getting pregnant can have a huge effect, and dwelling on this perfection may have held me back in some ways.

I'm trying to focus on the positives in my situation, being that DH is very fertile, I've fallen pregnant naturally before, my new consultant is really positive and determined, we have a plan for the future, I'm not quite 26 yet (yup, we started ttc when I was 16, and it was a damn good job with hindsight lol), and my Fsh is only 5.9

thats all we can really do, think positive and try and change the things we can, such as weight, financial stability, getting healthy.

positive thoughts for all

 

[oliveoyl]

Yep - it sucks!
Hugs

 

[Mrs G]

Hey all,

I had a weekend of drowning in self pity when I found out 2 friends are pg. (one in my eyes not very deserving, but that's me being judgemental...) I remember when we found out we needed ivf, crying to dh that I didn't want a baby made in a test tube! Like you all said I had this romantic vision of our baby being conceived out a perfect loving moment. Well that aint gonna happen for me and dh! But the end result will be the same and I think that all us lttc girlies will make sure great mums cos after our long fight, we'll appreciate that amazing gift, perhaps more than those who got it easy.

and

Kath xx

 

[Sambatiki]

Yup and its all BOLLOCKS!!!

Big Ladies xxx

 

[chefamy1122]

Yep! It sucks.

 

[Blue12]

Yeah I feel like that. I always imagined myself and hubby would just do the things that couples do, then one day soon I'd start to feel sick, realise I'd missed my period, and get all excited about the possibility of being pregnant, then do a test together, and nine months later out would come our baby.

A year and a few months later I'm now losing hope of it being like that which makes me feel sad. And jealous of the people that do have it like that. Sorry if thats bad, but just wanted to let you know that I know how you feel. x

That is exactly what I always dreamed of...............

I heard a lame little song the other day and one of the lyrics was.........

"Sometimes it takes a different dream......so don't give up"

Sounded like good advice. Lol.

Best wishes everyone!

 

[Blue12]

I vary tbh. I've been at this nearly ten years, and sometimes I have felt like I'll never get there, that each day has dragged and dragged.
I also have times when I feel that my little boy or girl is just around the corner. In many ways, being around my niece has helped this. Holding her, the reality of a baby is very different than the fantasy I've had so many years. Yes, a baby is a miracle, but I think I've made motherhood and having a baby so perfect, so amazing that it seems out of my limits. Does that make sense?

I'm a big believer that the psychological part of getting pregnant can have a huge effect, and dwelling on this perfection may have held me back in some ways.

I'm trying to focus on the positives in my situation, being that DH is very fertile, I've fallen pregnant naturally before, my new consultant is really positive and determined, we have a plan for the future, I'm not quite 26 yet (yup, we started ttc when I was 16, and it was a damn good job with hindsight lol), and my Fsh is only 5.9

thats all we can really do, think positive and try and change the things we can, such as weight, financial stability, getting healthy.

positive thoughts for all

I just bought a book called The mind-body fertility connection. Not sure if you have read it but it does talk about how our thought processes can get in our ways...........I'm hoping thats what it is for me..........lol.

Best wishes!

 

[tansey]

I just think i'll wake up one day and it's all been a bad dream and me and hubby have sex and i get pregnant and 9months later baby is in my arms!

 

[Blue12]

I just think i'll wake up one day and it's all been a bad dream and me and hubby have sex and i get pregnant and 9months later baby is in my arms!

Oh that sounds nice Tansey!!!!!!!!!

 

[honeycat]

Yes. It was the worst when we just hit the one year mark and I realized a whole year has gone by and I don't have a baby and not even pregnant.
Also it was at this point that I have finally come to terms that we are infertile and can't conceive without ivf. When we were first diagnosised I didn't believe and still thought we could have a opps. I even thought in my mind as we were waiting for AF to come to start ivf that just maybe I won't need it because I will get a natural bfp. Didn't happen, AF came on schedule and we started ivf. Now after 15 cycles I have come to accept that having sex when I am ovulating will result in AF coming 11 days later. No more counting the days to test, and no more going over pregnancy symptoms in my mind because it isn't going to happen. I feel cheated that why does this have to happen to us. Why does it have to be my dh. It is worst because his brother has super sperm, so why is it that my dh hardly has any?