Do you ever find it hard to be happy?

[JASMAK]

Yeah, I agree. It is hard. I keep putting things off, like school, because I am expecting to have a baby, and it's not a good time. But, other things too...snowboarding, living life. Everything is in limbo. I pretty much had a nervous breakdown in June. I couldn't handle everything. The losses, the not being able to get pregnant after the losses. I had to pull myself together. I even went to the DR for help, and they said, "are you SURE you want another child when you are so stressed out?" Hmmm...perhaps that is WHY I am stressed out? F*cktards! I def feel like I am in a funk, and not knowing IF it will happen is just miserable.

 

[Farie]

Hey chick

I often feel a little like this, I've had a 'difficult' couple of cycles and am feeling really low at the moment, nothing really seems to cheer me up ... I just feel flat and down a lot.
My DF is brilliant, he does his best to keep me smiley but I don't think he really understands why I feel so down so much.

I'm currrently having tests with the Dr and it all seems to be taking so long and I feel like I'm not getting anywhere

But then I get a hug and my cats cuddle me and I remember that I'm not alone .. I have all you guys keeping me sane (ish)

 

[HoneyWright]

Im with you on just wanting to know when, if someone said look im really sorry but its going to take another 2 years but you will get a BFP on 22nd Nov 2010 and it will be a sticky, i think oh well 2 years but id know what i was aiming for!!!

 

[HoneyWright]

Awww, bless you girls. It's great sometimes to come on here and know people understand you! My DH acts like he isn't too bothered by it all, but i know thats for my benefit. Sometimes i wish he'd just admit he felt the same way- it would actually make me feel better!
I keep thinking to this time last year when i was working out how i would explain not drinking at the christmas parties and stuff if i was to get preggo. Imagining telling my parents on christmas day and stuff... jeez, a whole year has gone by since then and all i've done is lived a year of cycles! feels strange - feels like it's not really me!
Said to my DH yesterday - how bonkers is it that the only wish i have at the moment is that i'll wake up tomorrow morning and throw my guts up!!!!

Oh my god i done exactly the same last year, couldnt stop thinking of ways to tell our families on christmas day! Oh well always this year, or next year.....or the one after that!!!!!

 

[bryany1]

Hiya ladies

to all of you. You all sound like me.

Just seems to be 1 thing after another. I get fedup of people saying 'just relax and it will happen', or 'try not to think about it'.
We are going down the icsi route and have been told it won't happen naturally.

Sometimes i could just cry for britain i get that low
I used to love my job but now i go just to pay the bills, there is no point changing cause its not the job really but my lifestyle. I wanna be at home with a screaming baby and pooey nappies. I don't care if i never have another nite out again. That part of my life is over now, just feel in limbo waiting for the next part of it.

Everything seems to off been on hold since we got married 2 and 1/2 years ago. Can you really get ttc depression then? Can you have treatment for it?

Think i am also low because i have to have another op for cysts, a blocked tube and endo. Will be my 3rd in 2 years. Sometimes feel like screaming WHY ME!!!!!!

Hopefully new year will bring us all the news we deserve

Take care

nik