Does Anyone else Feel that Being a Mum is Not in Your Destiny?

[Nayla82]

Ladies sorry that i must sound so DEPRESSED but i have no where else to go

I keep having bad thoughts in my head! is it just me or do other women feel that God is giving them a sign that being a mum is not meant to be?? i cant stop crying and i find my self having palpitations all the time....

Growing up it was a fear of mine not being able to have kids, and its come true and it scares me so so badly Than i always had a backup plan when you watch women around the world having IVF and it works, I naively think if worse come to worse theres always IVF, Than when it failed last month it makes me tremble!! Many will say think positive it will happen, but ladies its so so hard to explain that i have this very very STRONG feeling that i will fall into the statistic of women that never have a child even though they tried everything i cant seem to shake this feeling THAT I WILL NEVER HAVE A BABY TO CALL MY OWN

What made it worse was this morning I had a huge pain in my stomach went to the bathroom and bright red blood was on the tissue, i run to my husband crying that blood is coming out!! he said that your period finished last week, i never ever bleed between cycles, the only time i bleed is for a period... I have made an emergency appointment to see my fertility specialist tonight and she wants to see whats causing this??? Its just one revelation after another and i just feel that IVF/ICSI has caused problems for my body including a huge 5cm cyst on my right Ovary which has been causing alot of pain (im only 7.4 stones and i feel everything in there ) im so scared about everything and thats when i wonder is the lord making it so complicated and distressful so i call it a day????

Has anyone felt 100% certain that they will never be a mom yet they are?? its a sick and twisted thought but these feelings are just so so strong to ignore I just want to be a mom..... its killing me as a person and the stress its put on our marriage

 

[babyboo1258]

oh hunny so many people feel this way including me, i think its normal to feel it, when you want something more than anything. I know you prob wont want to hear it, BUT YOU WILL BE A MUM hunny it will just take a little longer, i know youve waited long enough but try & keep your chin up its so hard to keep positive

 

[Chris77]

BIG BIG SQUISHY HUGS!

I often feel that being a Mom just isn't in the cards for me. You're so much like me! Growing up I always feared and just kind of KNEW that I wasn't going to be able to have children. TTC now for 3 years and it's really quite frightening!

We will have our babies sweets. You can talk to me anytime you need to.

 

[Springy]

I think a lot of us have those same feelings at some point or another. I generally feel that way right after I get a BFN or AF shows up! But then I just have to believe that it isn't my time and that it will happen for DH and I.

Hang in there and remember the power of the mind. If you believe and remain positive it can have a HUGE effect on your body.

 

[PCOSMomToTwo]

I felt the very same way you did...In fact I remember sitting in the back seat of my moms car (I was about 10 yrs old), I squeezed my body between the 2 front seats and asked my mom "Did you have problems having kids" she replied "no, she didn't" ... I told her I was worried and she responded that I had nothing to worry about.

I got married at 22 and we imediately started trying ... after a year of trying NOTHING. Went to the doc and got diagnosed with PCOS. After MANY MANY MANY tears, wishing apon stars and pleading with God ... I got pregnant at 29. I had lost all hope, in fact we had started printing out adoption paperwork. It took us almost 7 years (6 yrs and 10 months to be exact) to conceive our daughter. (not to mention $1000's and $1,000's of dollars worth of treatment).
I never thought I would be a mom. No one understood. The heart ache was to over bearing. I had even considered leaving the world. BUT NOW....I think....
God HAD a plan! It was perfect timing! I'm so very blessed.

We are TTC#2 ... it's been over 2 years! All those horrible thoughts in the past are racing back and it takes all my will to push them away. My daughter deserves a sibling and she will get it. It just will take time, heartache and pain. In the end, we will be a happy family and SO WILL YOU!
Your dreams will come true and you will feel so blessed. God has a path for everyone ... unfortunately our path is a bit longer than most.
Have you guys seen the music video "I would die for that?" by Kellie Coffey?? I used to watch it as tears poured down my face. Very very very powerful video.

I forgot to add ... we are currently on a break from TTC because I developed a 6.50cm cyst on my right ovary as well. Hurts like hell.

 

[africaqueen]

The thought does cross my mind but i always know in my heart i WILL be a mum.
Its only hope that keeps us going through this hun xxxx

 

[annie25]

oh nayla im so sorry your feeling like this but please remember anyone who had fertility issues and has been ttc for a long time feels what you are saying!

i know i did and still do my fear of a m/c is so high and i cant get my head around it at all
xx

im sorry about the blood maybe to do with the cyst?

remember im always her big big hugs xxxx

 

[Tory123]

Hello

I know how you are feeling as I feel the same way. I have been trying for 5 year and never a BFP in sight. I even like POAS when ovulating just to see those two lines and think this is the only way I will see two lines. I already know the next IVF I have will not work begining to think what's the point. It feels so far out of my control and I have never experienced anything like it before. I woke up at 6am this morning and had a cry to myself about how unfair it is. I have always purchased things with kids in mind like car and house four bedroom now I feel really silly I thought it would be so easy.

Thinking of you all in similar position.

Tory
xx