does anyone else have nightmares?

[juicyfruity]

I do
I just remember pushing and that big incubator by my bed looming there threateningly like a replacement for my arms. The nurse trying to explain about the special care unit to me she was meant to come before my contractions got too extreme but I went from 2.5 to 9 cms in less than 20 minutes and by the time they realised it was all go and I was in so much pain I could barely listen. It's the incubator that was there that scared me and the 'silent birth' she came out with a gasp and then it was silent. they quickly got to resuscitating her and the whole time it was quiet and I was just lying there no one was paying me attention they were just all around Maria getting her breathing. Then she was wheeled from the room still quiet to be put on CPAP.

She's doing so well, still very small for her age and she is considered a 'late preemie' but it was the scariest most haunting thing.

 

[AdriansMama]

Aww I have had nightmares about struggling after my c section down to the high risk nursery for feedings and having to wait for the nurses to take him out of the incubator and then having to leave him there and fo back to my room ... not as bad as what happened to you but i do wake up crying everytime ♡♡

 

[AmyB1978]

I do. They have gotten a bit better as time is passing but they still come. Nightmares about what happened, nightmares about other bad things happening... To my lo and my DH. I also have been having some flashbacks and anxiety attacks..they also seem a but better, but still there. to you, to all of you, as no matter how good it turns out it shouldn't have happened that way and it is terrifying.

 

[Welshgem81]

My little girl was born at 34 weeks because i had placental abruptipn and i had blood pouring out of me. When she came out of special care and finally came home i had many nightmares about the experience. I woke up one night screaming over her moses Basket that she was dead and covered in blood. My heart was racing and my OH nearly had a heart attack! Thankfully they've stopped now!