Down in the dumps?

[Donut]

Is there ever a point where you feel like, "Why even test, I know it will be negative?"

That's how I feel right now, I've had many symptoms, and had a bfn. I read that dollar store tests are not as sensitive. So my db is getting a test for me, cause he's so great

He is excited at the thought of us having a child, it makes me feel better knowing he'll be there through thick and thin. He listens when I bring it up 400 times a day and even gives a little feedback here and there.

But even though my body could be saying, "Maybe!!" My head is saying, "Can't be." And I know when it comes time to test I'm going to be so scared of feeling that... pang of heartache when I see that single pink line. I worry that I'll never be able to conceive a child! That's all I've ever wanted is a little baby that came from me! I get so excited every time the thought comes up lol.

I've been doing some praying and I hope I will get blessed! But there's still that "debby downer" side of me that is saying, "Well get ready to be let down.. again..."

Just curious if any ladies can relate and if so what did you all do when this version of the baby blues hit you?

Much dust to you all!! xoxo

 

[aquaria6]

I can completely relate though I can't elaborate (using my phone right now so it's not so easy to punch out long messages). You are not alone in your feelings. Good luck Hun. When I get to a computer next, I'll check on you. I didn't want to read and run.

 

[Donut]

Thanks for replying! It's nice to know that I'm not the only one! Hope to see your post soon!
xoxo

 

[Acaseofyou]

I totally relate too! I can think about nothing else, TTC is consuming. All my friends tell me to relax and not think about it and it will happen. Well they all have kids and tried no longer than 3 months. Trying for a year like I have been is whole different story!

That doom and gloom voice is always there for me too. Waiting on the test to show up it says "negative, negative, negative" that's what was going on in my head when the "pregnant 1-2 weeks" popped up on my CB Digital in January! I think that was the happiest moment I've ever had! Unfortunately I miscarried, but it just goes to show that the Debby Downer voice gets it wrong sometimes!

Keep your chin up xx

 

[caity86]

when I get the baby blues, I tend to write a list of why we are ttc and how wonderful it will be when we do and I also look at baby clothes online Hope you are ok
x

 

[wannabemummyb]

I can totally relate, I've never had a bfp. I was fed up getting bfn's so when I was pg (found out when I miss carried) I didn't test.
Last month I had one day of spotting around af being due, this month I'm four days late. Too scared of another bfn to test just yet. I have pcos but since starting metformin in feb, I've been regular, although af has been light.

 

[Donut]

Thank you all so much! It's nice to have someone to share this with, especially people who understand!! It helps me to get my determination back.

Caity86, I am doing much better now, I did some quiet me time and composed myself, thank you for asking! I'm going to try the list writing!

wannabemummyb, I really hope you get your bfp! I can understand being scared to test!

Acaseofyou, I'm terribly sorry for your loss, but it's nice to see you're still trying! Just keep at it!

Again thank you all, your input is very very appreciated!
Much dust to you all!!! xoxo

 

[Katia-xO]

Hey.. i can defo relate to this! I'm currently a week late, yet refuse to test because i don't wana be let down and for the witch to get me 2mins after i test as this has happened repeatedly for the last 2-3 years!
I had spotting a week + a half ago and i had a tiiiiiny bit of spotting last night too which made me think i was out - this morning there's still nothing. So i'm hoping there's still a chance but my heads saying no :/
Good luck to you all! x

 

[Donut]

Katia-xO, I can relate with AF showing up not a day after i test! So frustrating, and dare I say embarrassing? I hope you get your bfp!
I don't even know if I've missed my period yet, it's pretty erratic, I've had it checked out and the most they found was just hormone imbalance (last year), got that corrected with progesterone pills. This year they've been fairly regular. (the days in between my periods vary quite a bit) Up until May 30th, I had a four day period (my usual is 5-7 days with a pretty heavy flow for 3 days then tapering the last 2-4) with some bleeding on the the first two days, seemed a little lighter than my usual heavy-ish flow. then the third day it tapered and the fourth day it tapered a little more and then ended. Not too long after that my sypmtoms started.

My brain is convinced that I'm just talking myself into it!

 

[Katia-xO]

Same! I've talked myself into being pregnant for the past 3 years.. I'll prob go into cardiac arrest if i ever got a bfp! Ha x

 

[Donut]

Lol same here. I can't even imagine the shock that would run through my body!

 

[ballface]

i do the exaCT same just think no way am i like i wont be that lucky- completely withered now

 

[aquaria6]

Glad to have read that you are feeling a little better donut. Good luck.

 

[Donut]

Thank you Aquaria! Good luck to you too!!