Due date coming up and really struggling

[PrincessTaz]

I had a miscarriage last year and it's going to be what should of been my due date on Wednesday. I'm finding it so hard, some days I don't know if I want to cry, shout or laugh! I feel like nobody else even cares about the baby I lost now that I'm pregnant again. I feel constantly guilty for still being so upset and thinking about how far along I'd be now and what baby might have been like because if I hadn't lost that baby I wouldn't be sat here feeling the LO kicking away. I feel like I'm expected to be over it already but I don't think I ever really will be. I love this baby I'm carrying so much and I wouldn't do anything to change to change it because it was obviously meant to be but even saying the makes me feel guilty. OH isn't always easy to talk to about things like this because he tends to try and be strong for me. I guess I just needed to get some of my feelings out and don't feel like I can talk to anyone else about it.

 

[PrincessTaz]

And now I've ended up arguing with OH all weekend because I can't seem to control my emotions. He knows I'm not coping well right now though, wish he'd just be the one to walk away sometimes!

 

[lizlemon]

Sorry to hear you've fought with dh, sometimes they just don't get it. I can relate to you in the fact that I miss my little one every day and when I do get excited about my potential one I feel guilty for the first one. I'm finding it hard at the moment as lo should have been home with me now and my 12w scan is coming up soon... And scared what that will bring!
Anyways I hope you feel better soon.x

 

[brittybird]

I always found the due dates to be hard and the anniversary of the losses to be difficult too. There isn't any other way to put it- it sucks. My hubby-to-be and I usually go out to eat or go to the movies when the dates come up. Right now I should of had a 7 month old and I would of been due with the second angel baby on this July 4th. But I have to remember to stay positive for this little baby, and I am just so grateful God is giving me another chance. Sometimes men don't 100% understand, they don't share their body with the baby & experience what we do. Relax & do something special on Wednesday, you deserve it!

 

[lch28]

aww honey i know how you feel. I lost my daughter at 23 weeks in February. While i have just gotten my bfp last week, i think about my daughter every single day and cry a lot about it. I think it is only natural. Try not to feel guilty, it is something really hard to get over