Early 30's TTC #1

[mrsmax]

Jogu - for the positivity. I loved temping - some people find it stressful but I loved feeling in control and knowing what was happening in my body.

MsJ - Ooooh - what cruise are you hoping for? I am loving your amazing holidays. That is strange abuot vit D is Oz - but I am sure you are right, it is eople avoiding teh sun. I have been to Australia a couple of times and one of the things I noticed was that there was a skin cancer clinic on every corner.

 

[rosababy]

jogu, doing good! Little Jack has been kicking away lately, which is pretty cool. I also enjoyed temping at first, because I felt like I was doing something proactive. After a while, it just got frustrating and I was totally over analyzing it, which made me obsess over it. When I went to the ob and he gave me clomid, he said I had done enough cycles to see what was going on, so I could stop.

Regal, I also have a vit D problem. Doc said get out in the sun a little, but also put me on an oral vitamin. I said I'd rather take a vitamin so I don't look like a purse when I'm 50.

 

[MsJMouse]

Jogu - for the positivity. I loved temping - some people find it stressful but I loved feeling in control and knowing what was happening in my body.

MsJ - Ooooh - what cruise are you hoping for? I am loving your amazing holidays. That is strange abuot vit D is Oz - but I am sure you are right, it is eople avoiding teh sun. I have been to Australia a couple of times and one of the things I noticed was that there was a skin cancer clinic on every corner.

I agree with you on temping mrsmax. I like the feeling of control and it helps to work out when AF might make her appearance for me as O is all over the shop. I found the months I haven't temped that cause I dont know when i o'd that it makes waiting for Af to arrive so much more stressful.

My best mate and I are going to cruise around New Zealand in Nov/Dec - during late spring to avoid to cold and snow! Have booked annual leave now to book the cruise. Yay!!

I live in Qld which has the un-enviable title of world's highest level of skin cancer. DH's step dad died of melanoma about 10 years ago so we are very careful with the sun - most of the pics i took in Hawaii have us in hats and i was really surprised I still managed to get a tan despite this and the sunscreen I was wearing.

 

[MsJMouse]

jogu, doing good! Little Jack has been kicking away lately, which is pretty cool.

That is so awesome. I can't believe you are that far along already. Time seems to be flying.

 

[mrsmax]

The cruise sounds great MsJ. I noticed in most of your photos you are wearing a hat - now I know why!!

It is bank holiday Monday here in the UK and it is pouring with rain - again! Seriously, we have had 2 days of sunshine in 3 weeks. Come on summer.....!

 

[MrsPTTC]

Mrsmax the weather is ok up north. But I have been so ill my bank holiday is wasted! Been up half the night vomiting, then AF came & I got horrible cramps. Still feel sick now. I really hope it's a 24hr thing as I've got work tomorrow. Feeling really sorry for myself . So back on the clomid again from tomorrow. Need AF gone by thursday when I go on holiday!

x

 

[MrsPTTC]

Jogu, re Soy, I'm sure a few girls on my spotting thread have tried it but it's not worked for them. I think there's a thread on here for it, I'm sure it's called "Soy Isoflavones - natures clomid" or something like that. Am I right in thinking you've been on clomid? If so, don't take them both together! x

 

[mrsmax]

MrsP - that sucks!! To be sick AND have af arrive. Life is so unfair sometimes - however least it is only 3 days until your hols Hope you feel better soon

 

[MrsPTTC]

Thanks hun, I know double bummer! But yes only 3 sleeps! x

 

[rosababy]

Oh mrsP, I'm sorry you're feeling so sick. AND with af. Double whammy. I hope you feel better soon.

 

[MrsPTTC]

Thanks Rosa! . To top it off I've noticed my cat has the end of its tail missing! Well 1.5 inches of the end of it is just bone! Bless him, definitely won't be going to work tomorrow as I don't think I'll be 100% & also got to take him to the vets. Think they'll have to amputate the end x

 

[jogu07]

Dear all....will respond to your posts later, hope you all dont mind, atm I am completely insane, out of my mind...!!! My bestest friend just announced that shes pregnant, to top it all, it was quite unexpected, they were NTNP and boom shes's preggo...!!! I know I am sounding selfish, its not that I am not happy for her but why not me God, I try to do everything possible and yet here I am on cycle 19 and still unsuccessful...!!! We never thought that she would hit the jackpot so early, she had PCOS, irregular periods, it never seemed that she would never ever require doc's intervention, and she never ever got treated for PCOS as she was not ready for a baby yet...!!!

I dont know what to think, just cannot stop crying but with a guilt that I should be happy for her, she is like a family and here I am feeling so bad just because she falls pregnant before me...!!! runnin shhort of words at the moment...!!! Guess, God is being cruel to me, maybe I deserve it...!!!!

Sorry for the rant but I m not feeling good..!!!

 

[MrsPTTC]

Jogu! Sometimes life is not fair, I've been through this too with my friends (literally all but 1 close friends are preggo or have LO's.) I think your best friend is harder though. My BFF was pg just before we started TTC thank god, but will probably be on #2 by the time I'm preggo! It's natural to feel jealous, angry, sad - no matter how much you love them. And no you don't deserve it!! My BFF said to me it'll be more special when I get pg as they'll all have older babies/toddlers and everyone will be cooing over my newborn and they'll be jealous! Got a point I suppose! x

 

[mrsmax]

Jogu - I promise we have all been there - this does not make you a bad person. I will give you a couple of examples that happened to me - after trying for about a year one of my best friends called me to say she was pregnant - it was a surprise baby as she and her boyfriend were having troubles - and she admitted that she was still smoking!! So there was me, in a happy stable relationship taking every vitamin under the erath and charting etc etc and there as my friend getting an oopsie baby with a boyfriend who had commitment issues and she smoked (and drank0 throughout her pregnancy!!! I got off the phone and cried for an hour.

Another friend came over from Oz and I found out she was pregnant and I coudlnt even see her I was so upset.

So - you are normal and it does hurt - a lot. The only good thing is that I find my resentment passes pretty quickly.

 

[MsJMouse]

Jogu. It is normal to feel like that. My best friend announced she was accidently pregnant with her third about a month after my mc. It hurt so much that every time I saw her I went home and cried. Hopefully she will understand how you feel as well and I am sure she knows that deep down you are happy for her.

I hope you get your bfp soon.

 

[MsJMouse]

Enjoy your holiday MrsPTTC. Have a great time.

 

[MrsPTTC]

Thanks MsJMouse! I'm going tomorrow so won't be back on again now. I might pop in during my hols on the WiFi if it rains and I get bored! But hopefully not x

 

[Crumbs]

jogu07 We've all been there. It's perfectly normal to have those feelings!

MrsPTTC, have fun!!!

 

[mrsmax]

MrsP - hope you are having/had a GREAT holiday and your poor pussy cat is Ok. Poor thing!!

It is raining - again! - here in the UK. Can someone from a hotter place please send some sunshine to the south coast - please!!

How is everyone doing? Regal - you ok? Pink - hows it going? You must be nearly at the end of the 1st trimester...

off to work - cant be bothered!! Roll on Friday.

 

[Regalpeas]

Hi Ladies, just stopping by to say hello. I have somecagtching up to do but I want to say to

MrsPTTC feel better and hope your cat is well

MrsMax I'm hanging in there. I see your scan is close! Exciting times!

Also, Jogu I am so sorry hun. We all go through it at one time or another. My major moment was when a friend on FB got pregnant and complained about not wanting the kid for most of her pregnancy. It definately did me in because it's just like why those who don't want do but we suffer the pains of wanting. Later on I felt better about it all. It takes time to let the emotions subsize. And the fact that you fee convicted proves you have a good heart . You are so a good friendd.

Hang in there!


Afm, I've been laying low waiting for a biopsy of my Thyroid. They believe my hormones are of wack so I have to go to an endocronoligist. I'm also going to return to my FS.


That's it. I hope everyone enjoys the holiday today!