Early 30's TTC #1

[MrsPTTC]

MsJ so so sorry to hear about your dad, I had no idea it was that serious I wish to god there was cure for the dreaded C. If they did routine tests for all different types of C I'd definitely pay to have them. Just awful Sending you huge and I'm so glad everything is ok with fuzzy. I'm eating a lot of fruit too hun, I make myself and DH fruit salads every day. I had an addiction to pineapple when I was first preggo, then read it's not good as it can bring on labour (in huge quantities albeit) so decided to give it a miss. I'm loving strawberries, cherries, grapes, blackberries and blueberries...

Welcome to the thread BFP Dreams. Have you had any tests yet?

x

 

[Soleil Breeze]

for the responses to the questions - they were so beautiful (I'm welling up right now!) Thank you for having faith that I will have my forever baby someday. Maybe if we all just think it enough and will it, it will happen! I guess why I want to have a Little One is much like you girls. I just want to share this something beautiful with DH. We've done so much together already, been together for so long, it would just be that icing on our cake!

Speaking of cakes and celebrations - Congrats, Aisak! OMG, girl!! Can you believe it?! Be strong in heart and mind. Everything is going to work out fine. Make it your mantra. to you and baby seed!
And an upcoming congrats to Pink80! SO much going on in your life right now, eh?! I wish you serenity as you make plans for your big day, but it's all going to be so much fun!!

MrsMax, I had never heard of a Babymoon before. I will be sure to ask for one when I get pregnant again! Although it may be too much to ask of DH because I've been bugging him to tweeze his eyebrows for eons now and told him that tweezing them will be my push present. He doesn't like the idea. I also think it's great that you're doing veggie. It's funny that you like the sweet stuff still. That is one thing that I couldn't stand when I was pregnancy. Even the smell of sweet things (baked goods especially) made me wretch.

Girls, I want in for blood work today. Can you believe that my body is still saying I'm pregnant?! UGH. Got to go back in again next week to see if it's down completely. Good news, I stopped bleeding yesterday. But now I'm thinking that I can't move on to another cycle if hcg is still running through my system. Hopefully I will be getting the genetic analysis results this week. Friday will be four weeks.

Crumbs, you are going to be like Readyornot, if you're not there already (wow that is almost a tongue-twister) - retiring baby clothes soon! Your babies are growing so quickly!! to them!

BFPDreams - welcome! Most of the girls on this thread have either had a baby recently or are pregnant now, but the majority spent many, many months TTC. Some even years (I've been TTC for three years now - got pregnant twice, but miscarried both times). A lot of us girls have been through struggles, and one, hopeful, even lost her Little One when she was quite far along. It's a very supportive group; all love going on here. Ask anything you want, and I'm sure at least one of us will have a response for you!

MsJMouse, my heart goes out to you and your family. Although your dad will not be physically present when your baby is born, I am sure that he will be present nonetheless. I am so glad that Fuzzy stuck around through this difficult time.

My love to all!

 

[MrsPTTC]

Aw Soleil you're always so positive & happy despite the recent goings on, its so lovely! I'm shocked you've still got HCG in your system hun, have you been checking on hpt's too?

x

 

[pink80]

Soleil sorry about the HCG - I know how you feel - after my first MC I had it in my system for about 6 weeks - but that was because of retained 'products'. Have they scanned you?

 

[readyORnot]

mrsmax - yaay for a great scan! I know what you mean about stuck in the office on a beautiful day, there were quite a few gorgeous days when I was pregnant and I was just there at my desk watching through the window. Well this time next year you'll be on mat leave, right?

Aisak - congratulations hon! Sending you lots of positive vibes and wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy.

rosababy - I had to sleep sitting up (leaning to my left on a massive pile of cushions) for the last 20 weeks of my pregnancy! Glad you've found a way to lay down that works for you! Not long to go.

MrsPTTC - fab scan pic! I'm always in awe when I think about the process of building a new baby, it's amazing. I'm glad you have an appetite, I had absolutely none whatsoever until Angelo was born.

BFP Dreams - hi! Sorry about AF being late, that kept happening to me when I was ttc. All the best for your ttc journey, I'm sure you'll find no end of support in here.

Crumbs - sorry about the sleepless nights, I hope it gets a bit easier soon

MrsJ - I've already posted in your journal but again, I'm so sorry for your loss.
I ate a ton of fruit when I was pregnant but for some reason I can hardly stand fruit now. I buy it fully intending to eat it but it's like I've just gone right off fruit.

Soleil Breeze - I'm so glad the bleeding's stopped. Sorry about the hcg, I hope it gets back to normal soon so you know where you are.

 

[MrsPTTC]

Thanks readyornot, I managed to cook raw steak & eat it without feeling pukey tonight! how is Angelo doing Hun? x

 

[Soleil Breeze]

Went from a great mood today to CRASH.

Got the results from the genetic testing of Baby2.

It was a girl



She was a little girl...
Hot damn; this can be so hard sometimes.



Trisomy 22.
Of course the nurse couldn't tell me if this is what took Baby1 last year. I have a feeling that was it. Too coincidental.



I was never into pregenetic testing (PGD) if we ever tried IVF, but I'm going to seriously rethink it. Because the nurse told me that it's possible for an embryo to split/double normally in a petri dish and yet have a chromosomal abnormality. I would just die to go through IVF and have chromosomally abnormal embryos that stand no chance of life to be put in me.



And now I'm really scared to get pregnant again period. Are my eggs too old?

Add to this the fact that my "period" started yesterday (what!?!) and I'm a bit of an emotional basket-case right now. Yes, you can still have hcg in your bloodstream and get a period. Who knew? Hopefully this means that when I go in for blood work next week, all the hcg from baby-that-was-never-meant-to-be will be gone.

Oh, God.

She would have been our little girl...
I really didn't think hearing the results would make me feel so bad.

Peace. I just want some peace for my soul.

 

[readyORnot]

Angelo's great! He's more than doubled his birth weight now!

I'm doing EC (elimination communication) so I catch almost all of his poops and quite a few pees in a potty every day. He hardly ever cries other than when I'm late for his feed, and he regularly sleeps for 4-5 hour stretches in the night, so he's really making motherhood nice and easy for me at the moment, thank goodness! He's at the stage where he smiles and laughs and coos and tries to talk to me now, so that's great fun! I love being a mum, and I'm sure you and everyone else in here will love it too. I feel like I was born to do this.

 

[rosababy]

Oh SB. I'm praying for your peace. Is T22 (can't remember how to spell it) something that can be fixed or prevented? I actually think IVF with chromosomal whatever would be good for you. That way you'd know you were putting in an embryo with a chance of surviving. What does your RE say about all of this?

 

[readyORnot]

Soleil, I'm so sorry.

And I'm sure your eggs are not too old. Maybe PGD is the way to go though? I guess you have to figure out what's right for you.

You will have your very own little one when it's right

 

[MrsPTTC]

Oh Soleil, I don't know what to say I can imagine it being even more upsetting knowing the sex. I'm so sorry. I googled it but didn't find a lot, there was one helpful website though https://www.c22c.org/index.html . I agree with Rosa, maybe IVF with the testing is the way forward? You will get your Hun x

 

[MrsPTTC]

Readyornot I'm pleased Angelo is a good baby But I must google that EC as I've never heard of it & it sounds bizarre! x

 

[pink80]

Oh Soleil - I'm sorry, that must make it so much harder Thinking of you xxx

 

[mrsmax]

Gosh - now I'm - MsJ and SB you are in my thoughts.

MsJ- I am soooo despertaley sorry to hear about your dad - I had no idea that was on the cards. take comfort in Fuzzy - I am sure s/he will be a much needed joy for your family. Hoep you're doing ok though

SB - wow, like MrsP - what is there to say? Knowing that it was a little girl nust make it seem so real. I am so sorry I too googled Trisomy. Please dont blame it on your eggs or think cause your eggs are old that you wont have a baby - my eggs are crap (and nearly 36 years old!) you WILL get there. I do think IVf with PGD is a good way to go - you dont want to go through that again. Is there a support group or soemoen you can talk to about the best way forward? It might be that you get preggo again and everything will be just fine, but sounds like you need some information.

 

[readyORnot]

Readyornot I'm pleased Angelo is a good baby But I must google that EC as I've never heard of it & it sounds bizarre! x

here's one article

 

[MrsPTTC]

Wow readyornot that's amazing! It's not something I think I'd do but good on you for having a go and managing with it! It must take a lot of time & patience .

Mrsmax has your ms stopped yet?

x

 

[Soleil Breeze]

Ok; so this is a quick pop-in. Yes, I still have freaking hcg in my system, which means I won't ovulate until it is gone (or at least less than 5). Argh. I just want to jump back on this bandwagon and get started again, but I can't.

From the looks of it, I won't be doing anything IVF-wise until early next year. The timing is just terrible from here on out (diss. work overseas again). Sigh.

Anyway, no, I haven't had a scan yet, but the fact that the hcg numbers are going down must be good. I haven't had a post-D&C consultation with my doc. yet, but I know that trisomy 22 is the result of random poor cell division in either the egg or the sperm.

Boo.

I've been writing some bad, but soothing poetry lately. Got to do something to keep my sanity.

PATIENCE, Soleil, PATIENCE.

I'll crack a nut (what does that even mean?!) if when I go back next week my levels are still "pregnant." I did look up how long it took me to get AF last year after my natural miscarriage and it was seven and a half weeks. Soooo, yeah. I'm nearly five weeks post D&C... But I swear that was a light period last week. My body is SO confused right now! Grrr.

OK! I'll be back soon. Rosa I need to come over to your journal and see what's going on.

 

[rosababy]

ha! not much going on. I had some strong contractions and cramps last night that didn't go away with the trifecta of emptying bladder, sitting down and drinking water...thought it might lead to something but nothing today. We'll see if I get some more tonight. Doc appointment tomorrow and I'm interested to see if I"m dilated at all. Last Monday, I was not, but was 50% effaced.

I'm sorry that your hcg is still too high. How freaking frustrating. Does the doc give you any indication on how long it will take to get back to "not pregnant" again?

 

[mrsmax]

SB Hope HCGH goes away very soon!

Rosa - any updates? Definitely feel like I am on Rosa baby watch!!!

I went to an antenatal swimming class last night - was great to meet other bumps!! 4 of us all about the same time. Is the first baby thing I have done - thought I could risk it as I havent been sick for 5 dasy!!!! Has anyone else tried anything liek that - def recommend - although I find myself worrying as my bump was a lot smaller than the others!!! I have a midwife appointment tomorrow - hoepfully get to hear the heartbeat (I love that bit!!) and she starts to measure bump this week

 

[mrsmax]

ps MrsP - you are nearly 12 weeks!!! How did that happen? It went so quick. When is your 12 week scan?