Early 30's TTC #1

[rosababy]

Thanks!

So this is "O" week for me. We'll see what happens.

Every month I tell myself "ok don't think about it, whatever happens... happens" but then I just can't help it and now I am basically in 2ww again...thinking about if's constantly! Thought this all would have been easier...

I feel the same way each month! I tell myself it's okay if it doesn't happen, if it doesn't happen this cycle, it will happen eventually, blah blah blah. And yet, I'm still crushed every time AF comes. Sucks.

 

[Crumbs]

Crumbs, your post about your husband refusing the maca made me chuckle. My husband jokingly calls me a witch doctor with all my herbal suppliments (i'm drinking red raspberry tea too).

Well, AF was due this Saturday and all I've had is minimal spotting. I'm really annoyed, because this means I'll just have to wait even longer. Plus, now I'm not sure which day to count from. Do I consider the little bit of spotting as the first day of my cycle, or do I wait for it to come full on?

I told my DH about how someone laughed at him for not taking Maca and he told me, "they're not really laughing, they just write that they are" ... I couldn't help but crack-up!

As for the spotting, Soleil Breeze is right. Spotting isn't supposed to count but my 1st day is usually really light followed by a normal, then a heavy day after. I count my 1st day because I want to make sure we really cover our bases when it comes to BDing. I've read that there's a very, very low chance of conception when you try after ovulation (since the egg's lifespan is 24-hrs vs the sperm's 5-7 days).

Fx'ed

 

[Crumbs]

and to nativetexan

Well, AF was due this Saturday and all I've had is minimal spotting. I'm really annoyed, because this means I'll just have to wait even longer. Plus, now I'm not sure which day to count from. Do I consider the little bit of spotting as the first day of my cycle, or do I wait for it to come full on?

Sometimes I have trouble with this, too, BUT spotting ain't AF. Until you see red flow, it just ain't it. So for my three days of brown spotting, I don't count those as CDs1-3. When I wipe and see the AF red flow, then I start counting.

BTW, ladies, I took one maca pill yesterday and today. Going for the minimum because I'm also taking some herbs from my acupuncturist and don't want things going too wild.

Also, I can't remember who has the hubby [Crumbs?] who isn't too much into taking herbal stuff, but you know what? When you guys get waaaay into the TTC process (hopefully you won't!), I'm betting he'll be trying just about anything. My DH is FertilAid-ing, maca-ing, and going commando! and this is the guy who thought we'd get pregnant, no problem. Hah.

Should be ovulating on the weekend. Not holding the breath, of course. Going to forget about it (hopefully!!) after we do "business sex."

It was my hubby that's refusing - but a few months of trying may change his mind! I think it's super sweet that your hubby's doing all he can! Fx'd

 

[rosababy]

Crumbs, that's hysterical! Tell your dh that sometimes we do actually laugh out loud!!

 

[nativetexan]

finally- No need to test...the witch showed up full force last night. So, I'm counting Sunday as day one. I spotted on Saturday and started on Monday night, so that should cover it, lol.

Crumbs- Your dh is funny. I think we should start spiking their meals with Maca, lol. We could make Maca cakes! My dh would never notice as long as I put chocolate icing on it.

 

[rosababy]

Aw, native. I'm sorry AF got you.

I actually found a cookie mix with Maca in it at Whole Foods, and told my dh about it. We joked about "needing" to take our Maca, and if it means eating a batch of cookies each day, then so be it! I said I don't think consuming thousands of calories each day was part of the plan. LOL!

 

[hopefulmama2b]

How is it going Hopeful! I'm glad you keep checking in

I finally! Things are good. I'm just super anxious for my first appointment, which is Monday Feb 7. It hasn't totally set in yet and I'm a bag of nerves still due to my history and just constantly pray that this baby is growing big and is healthy. So far so good though so I'm just trying to have faith!!

Baby dust to you all!

 

[Crumbs]

Native, sorry to hear AF got you. But a new cycle = new hope!

You girls crack me up about the spiking his meals ... I can totally do that! Now where's that muffin recipe I found. Muahahah!

Hopeful, Fx'd that all would go well for you and your little bean!

 

[arianne]

Hi Native, it sounds like a good one you have bought... start taking it with your hubby and hopefully you will get your bfp soon! sorry for your bfn this cycle!

Crumbs! thanks for the link about the turkey blaster method... i really didnt undestand it though lol! I mean, i dont know how can that be better than natural bding? actually that reminded me of the IUI, which I'll consider if I dont get a bfp by may...

This is my first month charting, and I find it pretty addictive! My temp kept rising and I was getting hopeful, but then it started to go down at 9 dpo I hope if goes back up again tomorrow I am at 11 dpo

Yesterday I went to a different fertility doc, and I like my other doctor much better... first of all this one was a guy (cute haha) and he just asked me questions and didnt check anything! My other fertility doc looked at my uterus and all that on my first appt. This one only gave me the tests requisitions (which I have done already with my other doctor ) so I dont think I will go back... but I will have the tests done, just to see if everything is still good...

The only one I havent done is the hsg test.... I am scared to do that one :S not becuase it hurts, but becuase it is an xray and worried if the radiations and the dye that they inject may affect in some way my reproductive system plus my mom told me to wait for that one, and that there wouldnt be a reason why my tubes would be blocked as I never had any surgery or any infections... so I am not sure what to do....

I think the plan is to have another try for feb, and if it doesnt happen then... I will take march off do that test and other things, like take my wisdom tooth out plus I dont want a christmas baby, not for me, but for the bb. I would hate if my bday is in december... where everybody is physically and mentally away.... but dh doesnt agree, he thinks every chance counts and that we cant waste our chances! But I do want to take a month off though, so march will work perfectly... to do all the things I want to do, like this test- I want to be 100% sure im not pregnant when i take that test, my periods are always so light that i often confused them with what could be implantation, so if I skip a month ill be sure im not...

Welcome kcali!

 

[kcali]

hi nativetexan - sorry to hear about AF (booooooo! )

Thanks for the welcome arianne. I think we are about the same age and on the same cycles... Charting is addictive, although I don't chart my temps I do chart everything else in an excel spreadsheet (even symptoms I think I might have ). Taking a month off is a good idea, just to get things done and take a short rest... take it easy, who knows what might happen when you aren't even trying?

 

[Crumbs]

The came early and got me this morning! Oh well, at least she didn't make me agonize like last month.

Fx'd for you gals!

 

[nativetexan]

Sorry to hear that, Crumbs. Sounds like you and I are just about on the same schedule. Maybe Feb will be our month!

 

[Crumbs]

Sorry to hear that, Crumbs. Sounds like you and I are just about on the same schedule. Maybe Feb will be our month!

Wouldn't that be wonderful! Fx'd!

 

[rosababy]

Oh, Crumbs. I'm sorry AF got you. On to a new cycle, though. February bfp sounds pretty good to me, huh?!

 

[finallyready]

AH Sorry got you Crumbs!!!!

Hopeful: Try not to stress too much about things you can't control! I know easier said than done. Just keep being healthy at eating the right foods etc. As that is all you can really do. FX you have a good scan

Arianne: I am the same as you! I am hopeful for BFP this month, but if it is not meant to be (I don't 'feel' different) so I am not expecting anything...then Feb is my month as I'll OV on Vday! (hopefully haha) But if not than I am taking March off too! I am going to Florida with my family...I'll be there the week I am expected to OV so we won't be able to do any while sharing a condo with my entire family!!!
Plus I agree with you, I would rather have a january babe as opposed to a dec one!

 

[Soleil Breeze]

the encouragement we give each other on this thread! We rock!


hopeful - it was great too hear from you; sending you good vibes, sticky dust and a bunch of blessings...

Light OPK line today...Going to use the FertilAid lube as soon as I get the magic line (can you even imagine what it would be like to get the "second line" on a pregnancy test?! I would freak right out).

 

[arianne]

kcali i also was charting all my symptoms so that i know for next cycle not to get my hopes up if I have those symptoms... now I dont pay attention to any of them, they used to trick me in the past and got my hopes up for nothing

booo crumbs!! the witch got you... anyway... now you can start charting this cycle as you said... it wil give you some valuable info! I dont know why I didnt start charting before!!

Finallyready! OMG! we are on the same page haha... I'll be also ov around valentines day!!! it would be amazing if we could conceive on vday! and my husband and I will be staying at whistler- a ski resort- for those days... it will be so romantic ahh i dont want to get any hopes up... i already thought of the idea of trying forever lol! nooo I hope it happens soon! Im sick of this!

Let's hope for a february BFP girls!!! a valentine conceiving!

This journey has been quite life changing for me... all my life I thought about the day I will have a baby... everything I would do, it was thinking about it, I had planned this for sooo long, and since 2008 I started reading about getting ready for pregnancy, I bought a book about "before you are pregnant" then when we finally started on july, the first month I didnt want to stress timing bding... I used to say "I dont want to stress myself about it"

After my 1st try I started to get sooo desperate and worried. I wanted to happen SOON! By september (only my 3rd cycle TTC) I got so depressed about that whole idea, wondering why the heck Im not pregnant if im doing everything right??!! so I was sure something was wrong with me and/or dh... so went for tests right away... but since then I have been calmed and more relaxed...maybe bc my tests are ok... but i dont have this desperate feeling of "I need to get pg NOW!" I already got a reality check... I have to face the facts that yes, I'll be turning 33 this year without a baby, and probably without a bfp and even though that is not what I had planned for my life... I am trying to find new approaches and thoughts.... "having my 2 babies before I'm 35" it certainly WON'T happen, even if i get a bfp next week!!

How ironic is this?! I had lived my life thinking about having a baby... and who knows if my destiny is to be childless I need to prepare myself for the worst, otherwise I will live a miserable life...

 

[arianne]

haha soleil!! you talking about loving the encouragement, and me talking about preparing for the worst.... sorry!!! I needed to vent my feelings... I cant deny Im scared, even though I look like I'm fine... I'm certainly not like I was on september: crying and depressed about it.... now I'm happy... at least consciously... but I know unconsciously Im still worried... I just don't want to get my hopes up anymore... the fall is too painful...

sorry girls... I think I'm sad, talking about all this brings me tears.... I think I get like this every time Im close to know that this cycle will be a failure again...

 

[hopefulmama2b]

This journey has been quite life changing for me... all my life I thought about the day I will have a baby... everything I would do, it was thinking about it, I had planned this for sooo long, and since 2008 I started reading about getting ready for pregnancy, I bought a book about "before you are pregnant" then when we finally started on july, the first month I didnt want to stress timing bding... I used to say "I dont want to stress myself about it"

After my 1st try I started to get sooo desperate and worried. I wanted to happen SOON! By september (only my 3rd cycle TTC) I got so depressed about that whole idea, wondering why the heck Im not pregnant if im doing everything right??!! so I was sure something was wrong with me and/or dh... so went for tests right away... but since then I have been calmed and more relaxed...maybe bc my tests are ok... but i dont have this desperate feeling of "I need to get pg NOW!" I already got a reality check... I have to face the facts that yes, I'll be turning 33 this year without a baby, and probably without a bfp and even though that is not what I had planned for my life... I am trying to find new approaches and thoughts.... "having my 2 babies before I'm 35" it certainly WON'T happen, even if i get a bfp next week!!

How ironic is this?! I had lived my life thinking about having a baby... and who knows if my destiny is to be childless I need to prepare myself for the worst, otherwise I will live a miserable life...

 

[piccolo]

haha soleil!! you talking about loving the encouragement, and me talking about preparing for the worst.... sorry!!! I needed to vent my feelings... I cant deny Im scared, even though I look like I'm fine... I'm certainly not like I was on september: crying and depressed about it.... now I'm happy... at least consciously... but I know unconsciously Im still worried... I just don't want to get my hopes up anymore... the fall is too painful...

sorry girls... I think I'm sad, talking about all this brings me tears.... I think I get like this every time Im close to know that this cycle will be a failure again...

Hey Vancouver buddy. Take a minute to look outside at the sunshine. And listen to some cheerful music that makes you happy. If you work at being "consciously" happy I'm sure your unconscious will follow. Your time is coming, and every month it doesn't happen just brings you closer to it. It takes us over 30 ladies an average of 9 months, so you're not even beyond average yet!