I am 4 1/2 years without bcp. There is some discrepency between my husband and I of how long we have been really TRYING TRYING in there. He claims 3 1/2 years, but I have only been obssessing since about Dec. 2006. At any rate...nothing is happening. Well, sure I got pregnant three times (assisted) but all ended in miscarriage. Now I have been referred to IVF, which I cannot afford and also I was cautioned about using IVF as I have recurrent miscarriage as well. So...what now? Am I at that dead end? Is this the end of this now? Do I just accept it and try to deal with it? Do I fight longer (I am 35 in Feb) and try to keep the fake smile going? Do I buy a puppy and replace the hole in my life? I wish there was someone on here who did step away and how they handled this or any advice. I have not given up this second. I am taking Clomid this cycle and I have my "second opinion" on Oct 27 or some far away date. I am just letting my mind wander there, that's all.