enjoying the little things

[paigeypoo]

i really dont know where to start. i lost my son at 18 weeks gestation on Sepember 25 2011, he was due feb 25 2012. the loss was attributed to many things, first my O- rh secondly a 1:9 ratio of my son having down syndrom and placena previa wich ultimatly caused the loss.
now this is my 8th pregnacy, i went through a loss at a young age 16 i was 27 weeks, Hailie was delivered april 17 2005. then welcomed my son in 2007,my daughter soon followed in October 2008. since then ive had 3 miscarrages. the last one being in September.
Im very nervous about being pregnant, im so excited and am hoping for the very best. I feel pretty good so far, no morning sickness yet. I confirmed today at the dr that i am 5 1/2 weeks pregnant and due Ocober 28th 2012!!!
i plan to enjoy every little moment

 

[Mom2mmcjg]

That sounds like a wonderful plan, Paige. Its so easy to waste our days in worry, enjoying every moment is much better.

 

[paigeypoo]

im suddenly feeling super guilty, everytime i walk into my room and see baby jacks urn on my dresser i feel so much loss. now being pregnant again i am scared and thankful and hopeful. i just hope my son knows how much i love him and that by no means am i replacing him, id give anything to hold him in my arms.
i dont know how to deal with the way my heart feels right now. super emotional today!!

 

[Mom2mmcjg]

Oh he knows. You'll get to see him in heaven and he'll be happy to know he's got a great mom and a sibling! Having another baby isn't replacing your baby in heaven, its growing your family!