Feel Like Its Neva Gona Happen :(

[mummytobekim]

Hello everyone,x
I havent been on here for while, and feeling crappy so thought id rite a mesage.
I had a miscarige at begining of march didnt know ow far along i was.. but ive been trying to concieve since, ive now had 3 periods since as normal, ive just had another period.. and its really getting to me now.. all i want more than anything is for me and my boyfrend who i love more than anything in this world is to have our little baby to make us complete, we have sex reguarly and do evrything right..but it ent working .. evrytime i come on my period i get really upset and it breaks my heart, and i blame my self, it rele gets to my boyfrend too,
this period though has been rele light and only lasted 3 days and normaly are heavy and are for 7 days.. im hoping that maybe im pregnant? but sometimes i just think that every little sign meeens im pregnant coz i want it so bad now i feel like giving up but i dont want to its just rele getting to me now i want to make my boyfrend so happy wen i tel him Im pregnant, i just cant stand the wait now!
Has anyone else had a miscarige? and how long did it take to get pregnant again????
Sorry for the mesage being so long..need to let it all out xxx

 

[Beccasmum]

Hi there. So sorry you're feeling so low, sending big your way.

I had a MC in April, had AF exactly 28 days later and just having my second at 32 days so have no idea where I am now with ovulating At least your cycle seems to have gotten back to normal straight away and that can only be a good thing.

I don't know much about it but on other threads I have read about something called implantation bleeding where you bleed very, very lightly when the egg is implanting itself. Depending on how heavy your flow is, could be this? Do you have any symptoms? Really hope this is your sticky bean

 

[mummytobekim]

ThankYu for your reply
Im sorry bwt ur loss too! xx How far along was you?
Yeah i read about implantation bleeding, but im not to sure if thats what mine is, i rele hope it is.. but knowing my luck at the mo it probly isnt
im full of cold and that at the mo too so that doesnt help, ive felt rele tired and sicky etc.. but like i said in the last mesage coz i want it so much i think evry lil sign,, oooo i mite be pregnant.. do you get like that too? xxx

 

[Beccasmum]

I was about 5 weeks. Pretty early but it felt like the end of the world for me. It's been really tough but I have come to terms with the fact that it wasn't meant to be and I'll have a healthy happy little bean when the time is right.

I definitely think every little thing is a sign!!!....feeling a bit sick, blocked nose, lack of AF! I was so hoping I was lucky this month as I'm usually so regular but no go. Back to the drawing board

Try and stay as positive as you can hun. Some days are worse than others but just know that there are people around to support you especially on here as we have all been through the same thing. Anytime you need a rant you know where to come xx

 

[mummytobekim]

Aww bless you. Yeh thats exactly how i felt, i had a abortion feb 2010.. so now i feel like it is all my fault, i totaly regret it, but now i feel like i being punished for it i know it will hapen wen the times right.. i just want that time to come now :/ .. hows ur partner with it all? is he undastanding? sometimes i forget that hes upset too, and going through the same thing.. but then the guilt al cumz bak wen i talk to him bout it coz al i think of is the abortion and how sick and horible it makes me feel knowing how unhappy he was wen i had it but i know ow happy e wil also be wen we do have a litle baba.. how long was u trying for a bay b4 the miscarige? xxxx

 

[Beccasmum]

Please don't beat yourself up over something that happened in the past. I did the same and now have a 6 year old so it is possible. I'm sure you will have your own little bundle of joy soon to spoil

My DH was upset but I think moreso because I was so devastated. We have been trying for over 15 months and I thought this was it As long as you keep talking to eachother you will be fine.

I know it's hard but try and focus on the future hun

 

[MrsNicols]

Hiya. 7 weeks ago I was just like u. had mc last oct @ 7wks but didnt find out till 12wk scan. It hurt sooo bad. My due date was my birthday. Then for 8 months nufin. We were bding like mad, I bought didital opks, took temps, vits, dh was on vits too. I was convinced something up. Ppl just said relax!wat crap! So I went to my dr n sworeblind I felt something not right. He sent me for u/s, cum bk clear, had bloods done, fine. Then I got my dh to do a sperm test and that cum bk, extremly low count and poor motiluty. Had anither dun, lower again. So my dr was referring us to specialist. We were still trying though in case one sperm got through lol! 2 days after being referred, found out I was preg! So it will happen hun. I was DEPRESSED!i cursed unfit mothers, was jelous of preg women. It took over my life! Byr it gets easier and jyst focus ur efforts on getting preg. Do all u can and it WILL happen. I never dreamed id be preg right now. I was on this forum all the time, even up to 7wks ago!!xx

 

[MrsNicols]

Dont mess ya mind up hun over ur abortion, u did what u thought was right ar the time. Hindsight is a wonderful thing n plays tricks on ur mind.xx

 

[MrsNicols]

1 more tjing!bd as much as poss up to 5 days before ovulstion as sperm stores up ready for egg. I got to know roughly my ovu dates and thats why I think we got lucky.

 

[kiki04]

Actually I have heard bd every second night for the best quality sperm...