feeling a bit alone

[Chilli]

Thanks BB. She is the apple of my eye and my consolation when all around me fails. It's nice to think she gives hope to someone else too. I'm a great believer that with time we will all get what we want, just some of us have to suffer more heart break along the way. My only worry is whether I'm strong enough to carry on trying - it helps to link up with others like you

 

[Rowan75]

hey hon

sorry you're feeling bad - Im NTNP until I find the courage to try again but am still lurking big hugs x

 

[wannabe mam]

Hi Chilli,
I have been on here since I miscarried in March. I know what you mean, you see a wave of different people every few months! I also have phases where I dont come on here, either to busy or feeling good. Remember it dosnt matter who is on here they all know how you feel and are always there to cheer you up xx

 

[Chilli]

thanks wannabe - I know people understand here which is really supportive.

I have appt at St Marys in london tomorrow when I'll get the results of the tests they did on my last little baby - not much sleep for me tonight -OH hasn't even acknowledged I'm going, sometimes I feel so alone in all this

 

[Rowan75]

big hugs hon x

 

[wannabe mam]

Chilli, I hope today is not to bad for you. Sometimes I think the blokes in our lives will never really understand our pain xx

 

[MMAM]

Hi

Sorry to intrude on your thread. I am in a similar position as some of you. I had my missed miscarriage on the 20 July 2010 (1st) which was just devastating and I haven't been able to deal with it too well. It just makes me so upset at the sight of all the pregnant people around me who I don't want to see anymore as it reminds me of what I haven't got and every time the dreaded AF arrives (which i am in the middle of). We have been using OPK's and checking CM around ovulation time. I have also been to see the fertility specialist who has done a couple of scans and tests. My blood tests have all come back ok and the scans show i have cyst on my right ovary which is about 2 cm's,the specialist thinks it is endometrial cyst, which could potentially mean i have endometriosis which apparently affects fertility. I may have the HSG test to see if the tubes are clear if nothing happens this month. DH tests are all fine.
This is really fustrating because I just don't understand why we can't get pregnant and why i could maintain the 1st pregnancy, it's been 6 months since the miscarriage and would have thought i would be pregnant by now.
Sorry to have a moan but am finding this whole thing pretty difficult especially as months just keep flying by so quickly.

x

 

[Razcox]

Can i join?? In a few groups already but as you say the numbers keep getting lower as people get there . Been on baby and bump 2 years now and ttc since Oct 08, took 5months for our 1st BFP which we lost then 12 months for the next one, which we again lost. I then got a bfp 6 months after my last MMC and just last week we found out this was also a MMC at 11 weeks.

Currently i am NTNP for a couple of cycles and awaiting an appointment to see the FS to find out why i keep losing my babies. I know a few of you from other threads and i am so sorry we are all still in TTCAL xxx

 

[Chilli]

Hey Razcox - we've met before and of course you are very welcome! The more the merrier (mmm that sounds a bit inappropriate but you know what I mean?)

Mmam - it's a horrible confusing and frustrating time, but I truly believe we can get there and having support really helps.

So I had my results and I my baby was a healthy little girl - no abnormalities which has broken my heart all over again. My previous MC was had triple x and that made it much easier to handle losing her so early... but this! So now it's more tests and more waiting and a hysteroscopy!!!?? at the end of feb (unless I can pay to get it quicker). And I know that I should wait to TTC but I've been waiting and waiting and I just can't anymore.

On a more positive note my FSH levels are 9.6 which is much better than the 12 they were in june - I've been taking maca and royal jelly for a few months so I put it down to that!

 

[Rowan75]

big hugs mmam and razcox

oh chilli what a shame - Im so sorry hon

x

 

[Chilli]

Thanks Rowan, today it's a bit easier.

Just noticed your dpo is about the same as mine, I think I ov'd about 3 days ago but FF hasn't picked that up yet - had +OPK 4 days ago. Let's hope we both get lucky in time for new year

 

[Rowan75]

thanks hon - we're NTNP at the mo - going to wait til July to ttc - I know Im not getting any younger so we shouldnt put things off but we need some time to just enjoy being the two of us - we were talking about if we dont have a family of our own then we need to be ok with that and be able to have a good life together so we're kind of focussing on us time

Im still tracking my cycles tho as with pcos its the only way i know whats going on - like this months Ive ovd on CD8 randomly! I suppose most of this year I've had clomid / bfp / mc cycles so its going to be interesting to see how the next few months pan out

fingers crossed for you hon

 

[Chilli]

Hey Rowan, we did the same thing last year for initially 6 months and then 3 more - I needed to for my sanity - but I also am running out of time and had high FSH results in june so now getting a move on, but levels dropped to much better so not stressing too much. It's good to consider your options but don't loose hope