Feeling a bit glum :-(

[laurac1988]

I'm feeling a little down in the dumps tonight. Just broody I guess. Just watching all the ladies I started TTC with now having babies over the age of one and some trying for their second already. I know we've had a lot of breaks and really don't have any reason to whine, but if is have known this was how it was going to go when we had our very first donation back in February 2012 I don't know if I would have bothered. I guess I'm just worried. I've seem so many on here be diagnosed with scary things, then I think about the months we tried with no success and I wonder if I'm in that position too. Is there something wrong? Sounds silly because we haven't actually tried once since we started TTC again. The first month our donor let us down and the second cycle was anovulatory. I just don't know.
I know that moment when the bfp shows up is going to be amazing and gorgeous and so, so worth it. And that moment we hold our baby for the first time will be worth the heartache already had and any to come, but jeez. I wish it would happen soon.
It's odd to me that if my first and only bfp back in march 2012 hadn't been a chemical pregnancy, we would have an eighteen month old child. They would be two in October. Yet instead we have no children. We have a gorgeous god daughter and I love our life, but I wonder what it would have been like had that little bean stuck?

Sorry ladies. I feel like such a dick for whining when some of you have been actually trying for longer than me

 

[ByHisGrace08]

Don't feel bad for expressing your feelings, TTC is a hard journey! I also struggle with the fear and unknown-this TTC is a hard business!!! Sending a hug and some prayers!

Blessings & Babydust,

 

[mrshan]

I feel this way all the time! We've only been TTC since last July, but we really just want to get it going because we're older, and don't want to be in our 60's by the time our kids are going off to college. DH is turning 39 next month, and I'm 33, so it sometimes feels like we're running out of time.

I've found that it was good for me and DH to have a conversation about what we're willing to do and how long we're willing to TTC. We've committed to trying for 2-5 years, and after that we're comfortable with having lots of money, traveling the world, and just being happy with the two of us. Right now, we've ruled out IVF, IUI, and surrogacy, but will go for testing to see if there's an easy fix if we're not pregnant by the end of this year.

It's okay to feel down. This is really hard- harder than I ever thought it would be. It's also so much more important to me than I thought it would be: before marrying DH, I was kinda meh about the idea of having kids, and I wasn't really decided either way. Now, I'm like GIVE ME A BABY NOW! haha

 

[flou]

Its ok to have down days. And to wonder what could have been. Me and my DH have been ttc for 3 years now. We have had 2 mcs in that time. My first angel was due on my 32nd birthday so would have been a year old in July. And I could have been nearly 7 months pg now if I hadn't of lost my second angel. Not a day goes by when I don't think about both of them.

 

[mrshan]

Oh Flou, so sorry for your losses. I hope you get your rainbow baby soon.

 

[flou]

Oh Flou, so sorry for your losses. I hope you get your rainbow baby soon.

Thank you for your kind words and I hope you get your bfp soon!