Before I say this, I just want to point out how deep down under all the worry, I am happy to be in my current situation and I realise how blessed I am to have a healthy child and twins on the way. Especially as I've had 4 mcs in the past (2 before my son, and 2 before this current pregnancy). I am also excited about having twins and can't wait to meet them, but I just can't shake off this constant worry and feeling of panic.
As time is going on I am starting to feel scared about the future, how OH and I are going to cope emotionally, financially, where I'll be working (I work part time nine to five for 2 days a week at the moment, so will need to leave my current work and find something more suitable), and where we'll live.
We live in a private rented top floor flat (3 floors up with no lift) so going to need to move house too, and it is all starting to get a bit too much. My son has hypermobility and is nearly 2 but can't walk yet so needs to be carried up and down stairs. I try not to think too much and go with the flow as I know deep down things will work out, but it's just starting to all get to me this week.
Pregnancy aches and pains have also kicked in recently which I think has contributed to how I am feeling (I am 23 weeks), and also OH and I regularly struggle to cope with my mum and dad who can be very overbearing, and there was an incident last week where my mum overstepped a boundary and belittled me in front of my child but when I tried to talk to my dad about it he just defended her. My mum is not an easy person to sit down and talk to so it isn't just a simple case of having a word with her about it.
Everything just all feels overwhelming at the moment and just needed to get all that off my chest.
As time is going on I am starting to feel scared about the future, how OH and I are going to cope emotionally, financially, where I'll be working (I work part time nine to five for 2 days a week at the moment, so will need to leave my current work and find something more suitable), and where we'll live.
We live in a private rented top floor flat (3 floors up with no lift) so going to need to move house too, and it is all starting to get a bit too much. My son has hypermobility and is nearly 2 but can't walk yet so needs to be carried up and down stairs. I try not to think too much and go with the flow as I know deep down things will work out, but it's just starting to all get to me this week.
Pregnancy aches and pains have also kicked in recently which I think has contributed to how I am feeling (I am 23 weeks), and also OH and I regularly struggle to cope with my mum and dad who can be very overbearing, and there was an incident last week where my mum overstepped a boundary and belittled me in front of my child but when I tried to talk to my dad about it he just defended her. My mum is not an easy person to sit down and talk to so it isn't just a simple case of having a word with her about it.
Everything just all feels overwhelming at the moment and just needed to get all that off my chest.