I'm just looking for some support and understanding, because right now I feel alone. I'm 30 (I don't have any children) and I've wanted a baby for about 3 years but I held off because my boyfriend wasn't ready. After a few heart to hearts, he finally agreed last year to start trying and he's now come around to idea of becoming a dad. So we've been TTC since November 2012, but since then I've had the worst year of my life. I fell pregnant in March 2013 but had a MMC in April. I was 11.5 weeks and I found out at my 12 week scan that the fetus had no heartbeat. I had a D&C to remove it and it was heartbreaking. Then, 2 weeks after my D&C my mother died very suddenly. She was only 61. It was devastating. After that my periods stopped. I had nothing for months. I saw my gynocologist and he said it was probably caused by grief and stress and prescribed me Progesterone to kick start my system. This worked thank god, and now I am getting periods again but they are very irregular some cycles are as long as 42 days. So now we care finally trying again in the hope that I am ovulating again and could conceive. The problem I have now is how sad I feel because I know so many pregnant women. I can't get away from it, I have it at work, there are endless scan pictures and announcements on social media sites. Almost all of my friends are expecting, and those that are not already have babies. I'm so frustrated and I just wish that my life wasn't turned upside down right at the time we said we would try for a family.