Feeling down right now

[Dilek]

Hi

I am so upset, I am usually really good with keeping myself together but since my fertility specialist appointment on Monday, I keep beating myself up.

I feel robbed of the chance to TTC naturally, we didnt even get a chance to try. Since Dec 07, ive been in and out of hospitals with surgerys, scans and injections. I dont even know if im infertile or not but this damn endometriosis is aggressive and if we allow to try naturally i will definately cause damage and have a hysterectomy. I just wanted to feel hopeful of having a baby, doing all the silly things, counting down the days, being neive about the whole thing and just go crazy with DH. I was robbed of that chance and the thought that the only chance to have a baby is via IVF. I should be grateful that there is IVF but this whole baby experience makes me feel less of a woman. I WANT TO BE NORMAL.

 

[Millnsy]

Oh hun, I know how you feel. WE are entering our 3rd year of TTC and I've never even had a sniff of being pregnant. We have been having treatment for about 10 months now and I keep asking myself if we should have kept trying on our own for a bit longer. All this intervention takes the romance out of the whole thing and makes me feel really bitter on some days.

Don't worry about normal, just try and focus on the baby, I'm sure when we get there we will forget about just how awful it was to get there...

Keep smiling, have a glass of wine or 2 (because you can!) and I'm sure things will start to look better soon....

M xx

 

[kat08]

Keep going Dilek it will be worth it in the end!

 

[Dilek]

Thanks girls it means allot that i can vent here. I just was always scared I was unable to have a baby, ive had this since i was a child. It feels like some days this bad dream is becoming a reality. Ive only been with my husband for a year and half and all these problems started after being married for only 3 months. I feel so guilty.

Im really bitter. Why do some people get things so easy in their life while others like us have to suffer?

 

[kat08]

I know it's rubbish! This woman who is a complete cow at work has just started trying and guess what - got pregnant straight away!

It isn't fair but we will get there in the end!

 

[Nathyrra]

So sorry you're feeling so low right now

I often feel like I'm robbed of some type of normality too, I feel like I'm not a real woman. No body deserves to go through this type of pain. It's burning.

It sounds like you have had a hell of a hard time.. It's unfair. Hope things looks up for you soon chica. When I feel like poo I just think to myself 'Everyone's gonna be soo jealous when I start parading around my twins oneday!' lol wishful thinking, but it does the trick.