Sweetie
DD, DS, and a Surprise!!!
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I do.
My pregnancy was a very welcome surprise. We were letting nature take it's course and it worked... but not really.... I was so happy when I found out I was preggers after a really long and strange cycle. I started bleeding and I knew right then that that was it. We had only known for 5 days and it took them5 days to confirm that the baby was gone. So I sat in limbo as the math (hcg levels and scan info) could possilby/ remotely work out(you know the fingers crossed kinda maybe). But I really did know it was done. I'm sad.
And I feel guilty because I want to be preggers again. This is what is killing me. I feel like I should be more upset about the loss, but I'm not, somewhere inside I really feel like I knew it wasn't 'right'. I understand that sometimes things just don't work and as much as I could have loved it inside of me that love wouldn't have been able to do anything on the outside.
I wanna be preggers... I'm sad
My pregnancy was a very welcome surprise. We were letting nature take it's course and it worked... but not really.... I was so happy when I found out I was preggers after a really long and strange cycle. I started bleeding and I knew right then that that was it. We had only known for 5 days and it took them5 days to confirm that the baby was gone. So I sat in limbo as the math (hcg levels and scan info) could possilby/ remotely work out(you know the fingers crossed kinda maybe). But I really did know it was done. I'm sad.
And I feel guilty because I want to be preggers again. This is what is killing me. I feel like I should be more upset about the loss, but I'm not, somewhere inside I really feel like I knew it wasn't 'right'. I understand that sometimes things just don't work and as much as I could have loved it inside of me that love wouldn't have been able to do anything on the outside.
I wanna be preggers... I'm sad