Feeling like something is wrong with me :/

[Cassie.]

This is only our third month TTC and I know it takes time but I can't shake the feeling that something is wrong with me and I'll never be a mother I don't know where this comes from but since I was about 14 and have thought about eventually becoming a Mum I've always assumed I wouldn't be able to have children, I have no clue why. It's all I really want from life, that and to marry my amazing OH. In the last 2 months when I've been in the TWW I've been thinking that something's wrong with me even more. It's just a feeling in the back of my mind that I'll never have my own children, it's been there for years and I just have no idea why.
I told OH about it and he said to see the doctor, which I did and our doctor told me that he can't check/test for fertility problems unless there's a family history or we've been unsuccessfully TTC for a year. I think he thought I'm crazy, I think I'm crazy to be honest.

I have regular periods and have took ovulation tests that have worked fine so I know I'm ovulating. I just can't shake this horrible feeling that I'll never have children and something is wrong with me I feel so stupid even writing this.. but has anyone else felt the same?

 

[AC1987]

aww don't give up now! sometimes it takes a while.. I'm on my 6th cycle and still waiting for my bfp kinda hoping this'll be the cycle I get my bfp

 

[ducky1502]

It took 13 months to conceive my son but it DID happen, it just takes longer for some women xx

 

[smokey]

Ever since I was about 13 I always had this feeling that I would never be able to be pregnant or be a mother.
It got worse when dr's told me I would never be able to concieve or on the fluke chance I did id never be able to carry to full term because I was born with spina bifida and then was diagnosed with PCOS and scans showed one overy was completly shrivled and the other one was covered in cysts and my overies, tubes and uterus where not where they where ment to be they where higher up and towards the back more then was normal this was part of internal deformaties with the spina bifida same with my intestines and bladder.
So I was convinced there was pretty much no chance especialy after 8 years of trying.

You dont ever actualy truely shake that feeling untill the day the 2nd line shows up.
After years the dr's finaly gave in and put me forward for fertility treatment (I dont think they thought there was much point concidering the odds) but 2 days before I started my treatment that little 2nd line showed up all on its own with no treatment.

It can happen dont give up, I hope it doesnt take you no where near as long as it took me but just bare in mind that with every passing month it is even more appreciated when you do see that line.
Try looking into temping to get an idea if you are actualy ovulating, opk's show your releasing the hormone to ovulate but cant actualy show you if you have.

Good luck and keep at it

 

[Cassie.]

Thank you all so much and Smokey thank you for sharing your story.
It's reassuring to know that other people have felt this way.

and Congratulations on your beautiful boy

 

[TracyE.]

Aww hun, I have felt the exact same way. Being a mom is my dream, thats all that matters to me (and DH of course). For me I think this is the first time in my life that I have had to come to grips with the fact that no matter how bad I want to be pregnant, I cannot totally control when it happens. Its scary to know that something you want more than anything is largely left up to chance. But try to keep positive because ttc can make even the most hopeful and confident woman feel like she is on the verge of a total meltdown. You are most definitely not alone. Good luck to you, I hope you get your BFP soon!

 

[cochy115]

Oh hun. I know it's so disappointing and so frustrating. Just know that it takes healthy couples 9 months (on average) to conceive. It seems like an eternity as the months go by, but try to enjoy your relationship and baby making. Cheer up! Be sure you're getting everything timed well and your wish will come true!

 

[Faith n Hope]

I feel worried as well and like its never gonna happen it upsets and worries me! Ive also been told that I have to try for a year before getting tests or treat for infertility! Its so hard! Sending lots of Baby Dust! x

 

[catielove]

Aw hun, I know how you feel. My whole life the only dream I've had that's really stuck was to be a wife and a mother. I feel like motherhood is my calling. My family calls me the baby whisperer because of how good I am with kids. lol. But since I was about 16, I've had this feeling that I wouldn't get to be a mom. (Luckily I'm getting my issues sorted out right now, so it's not too late.)

The support of all the ladies here is amazing, though. To be able to get advice and gain knowledge from everyone is unbelievable, and I know that one day we are all going to get our BFP's.

Like cochy115 said, it can take 9 months for the average couple to get pregnant. Keep your head up! If you feel like there's something wrong, go get checked out by a doctor. Take care of yourself, too. And you've always got us to vent to or ask questions if you need us.

 

[Cassie.]

Thanks everyone, this has made me feel so much better xx

 

[Faith n Hope]

Aww glad ur feeling better!
Sending lots of Baby Dust to you!
x