Feeling Sad and Guilty

[LaraSue]

I'm not sure where would really be the best place to put this, but I suppose this is as good a place as any. I lost my first pregnancy in March 2013, at 10 weeks. I was due in October, 2013. I became pregnant just 7 weeks later and had a healthy, huge, happy baby boy in January. I love my son, so, so much. Tonight though, for some reason, I am missing my little girl (I don't know for sure, but I always felt like it was a girl I lost, so that's how I refer to her). If I had the girl, I wouldn't have my son, Sawyer. I know this, and I'm so happy to have him. He's healthy, he's a good baby, he's happy, and he makes me happy. I wouldn't trade him for anything, including my little girl. I still want my little girl though. And I feel awful about that.

 

[anxious mommy]

It's normal. She's still your baby. You can't possibly choose between them despite the circumstances. Miss and love her. Rejoice in your boy. It's the best way to honor her.