Feeling sad tonight

[JASMAK]

I went over to the first trimester board to snoop around. I am supposed to be 8 weeks tomorrow. Made me sad. I read about someone not wanting to "suck it [their tummy] in anymore". I wish that was me. I wish that I had something to suck in (well, besides my fat-LOL). I wish I could look into the future and just see. Will this ever happen? How much heartache will I have to endure? Maybe I feel this way because tomorrow is Tuesday, and the last Tuesday of the month I lost yet another baby (maybe two this time). I wish I knew what the secret was to keeping a baby. I wish someone would whisper it in my ear...and then I would know exactly what I needed to do. It sucks that I can't control or change things. I am rambling. Thanks for reading this if you have made it this far.

 

[mugzy]

Sorry you're feeling so low. I know just how you feel, Sundays are difficult for me. I wonder if they always will be. I've had to stop reading some of the journals that I used to visit often, they're only a few days ahead of where I should be. It's difficult to read about people planning their nurseries and washing clothes for the baby, when only a couple of weeks ago I was doing the same thing. A friend of mine had a baby at the end of September, and she was complaining about how much her boobs hurt and how she's getting so little sleep. I would give anything to have her problems

Thinking of you. Hope you feel better soon

 

[sweetcheeks]

Jasmak - don't lose hope. You will get there in the end. It took me 18 months getting pg the first time so I know how hard it is. I really hope it happens for you soon and you are in my thoughts.

 

[moomoo]

me too jasmak i would be 14 weeks now, having a visit from the midwife its so sad, but it will happen for us!

 

[honeybunch2k7]

Me,as well.

 

[Drazic<3]

Im so sorry to hear of your loss.
Please dont give up hope, this will happen for you.
Sending love your way

 

[Sambatiki]

I terrible for reading 3rd Trimester threads wishing I could contribute. Why do we do it to ourselves??

 

[Visqueen]

Im so sorry I should be due 6th Nov and finding it so upsetting too try and stay strong even though I know its not easy.
for all you special ladies who are going through such a difficult time