Feeling scared/nervous about dtd!

[hmcx]

Hi all
I had an early loss at 4w 4 days.
I only found out I was pregnant at 4 weeks.

So Anyway, I coped pretty well just life as normal really.

My husband and I kinda were going to wait a few months to try again as we would be in a better position life and money wise.

But I just thought, maybe we could ntnp this month

And I've literally started shaking and feeling terrified of dtd!
I feel like I want to run away and hide now. I'm actually pooing/sh💩Ing myself.

Is this normal?

 

[Myshelsong]

I had a late loss this September and an early loss this month around the same 4w5d as you did. It is normal to feel emotional after a loss about intimacy and there is nothing wrong with that. However if the idea of being intimate without protection is giving you a nervous bowel it sounds like you may not want to have a baby yet ... so maybe suggest condoms?
Sorry u r going through this