Feeling so down today :(

[sunshine83]

Hi Ladies,

I had a mmc with our first little one in December, it was our honeymoon baby and we were over the moon. I went for a scan at 9 weeks as i'd had some spotting and we were told the baby had stopped developing at 6 weeks. It devastated us.... We've been trying ever since and each month that goes by without a bfp breaks my heart all over again...

I tested today and got a bfn but thats not really surprising because I'm not due until 28th! I Don't know why I do it to myself.... I don't really feel like I'm pregnant, well if you'd asked me that 6 months ago I'd have said definately! I feel sick and nauseous, boobs are so sore and i'm very sleepy all the time among other symptoms... But thats how every cycle has been since the miscarriage. The Dr says after miscarriage you have to "expect the unexpected with your cycle"

I feel so sad. I want to be pregnant so much. I need it! I feel so empty

 

[jen1604]

Oh hun Youre doctor is right,for a little while your cycles probably wont be back to normal but that wont stop you trying to spot signs and be upset when you get BFN's.Its perfectly 100% natural as Im sure every other girl on here could confirm
Sorry to hear you're feeling sad today,dont be afraid to grieve,its only been a couple of months and although things will get easier with time,expect to have days when everything comes back to you and breaks your heart all over again,I know I still get those days.
Sending you lots of love and hugs.Be good to yourself and make sure your hubby gives you lots of hugs and looks after you today xxx

 

[Las78]

Hun, sending you huge hugs. It took me a while with my DD and I remember feeling every month that AF come that it was a huge kick in the teeth, it felt so unfair and I was longing to be pregnant. It did happen hun, when I least expected it.

I've also just m/c and want to TTC, I seem to have a thing about it taking a while for me though so I am dreading it in some ways as I think it may be a long haul and I will probably feel the same way as you are now, it's perfectly normal the way you are feeling hun, I know this means nothing though.

Just take good care of yourself, it will happen for you hun, you'll get your sticky bean - sending you lots of baby dust and thinking of you.

Take Care
Lisa

 

[todteach]

Sending you big . I'm hoping that you will be pregnant again really soon. I remember after my first miscarriage, that it took a while for my cycles to regulate. They had been on a 28 day cycle and turned to a 31 day cycle for months. My fingers are crossed tightly for you hun.
Sending you love.

 

[toby2]

just wanted to send you a hug sunshine-some months seem really tough hey?i know i felt like i really 'deserved' a bfp after my first m/c and i did, but sometimes they just take a while, its rubbish and like everyone else has said take good care of yourself,heres hoping you get your bfp soonxx

 

[sunshine83]

Hey ladies

Thank you so much for your replies for all of you!

I hate this feeling sorry for myself business but it seems so hard sometimes...

I've been busying myself all day today and am so tired now! I find it so hard to get motivated enough to do anything since we lost the baby but when I do it certainly keeps my mind busy until i'm too worn out to think!

I appreciate your lovely words and support so much I wish I had "real life" friends like you! None of my friends seem to understand and most of them haven;t bothered with me in a while as they dont seem to understand why I cant "get over it"

I'm looking forward to a quiet night in with my sister and my hubby tonight with tv and snacks, maybe a glass of wine.

Love to all x x x x