Thanks everyone. It does help to know that things are not quite as hopeless as they once seemed.
I was sick of being in pain, sick of looking around and seeing everyone else get lucky whilst I did not.
I was sick of people saying to me that I just had to be patient, to wait it out and that something would happen. Nothing did. Nothing was.
In 7 weeks I will know exactly what I need to do. Kind of looking forward to that!!!