First period since loss *EDIT* what is normal?

[Whitbit22]

Came right on time... and I never thought I could feel SO gutted. It is so unfair. DH is acting like he doesn't get why I'm still sad. He hasn't actually said that but he questions why I am depressed. I guess it's just easier for him to get on with it. And some days for me it's easier not to think about it, but I always do even if for a moment. One pregnancy in almost three years, and I can't bear to think how long it might take to conceive again.. or if I will even be able to carry a baby. It breaks my heart, I've wanted a baby of my own since I was a little girl.

I'm considering going back into therapy, even though it's expensive I think it'd be worth it. Is anyone else having therapy and does it help, even a little? I mean, I was in it 3 years but never for anything like this..

 

[Tina_TTC2]

i'm considering it. I've had way to much stuff happen this year - the M/C was just the last straw so to speak. So much misery, I spent most of the day trying not to cry and just feeling absolutely heartbroken. So very sad. incredibly sad. Was trying not to make a big issue of the event, and only telling people here and there but not making an effort to share my pain. I'm thinking that burying it, not sharing why I am upset, is not at all healthy. I'm working through it but seriously am thinking of going to counseling. I've been 2 other times (2 issues) in the past. but haven't been for like 2 years now. I'm thinking it may help. Good luck with your decision

 

[Whitbit22]

Thanks hun.. I feel the same, and also try to bury it. Not working well most days as I can't bring myself to do the things I'm supposed to be doing. Medication is off the table for me because it has never worked for me before, only made me feel not me.

 

[aviolet]

I find that talking about it is a huge help.... Definitely lightens the burden and sometimes brings up personal truths and positives that are hard to see when we're so isolated and holding all the pain inside. I've never gone to professional counseling but I think it'd do me a lot of good to talk to someone trained in the area of baby loss/grief.

 

[hippylittlej]

I find that talking about it is a huge help.... Definitely lightens the burden and sometimes brings up personal truths and positives that are hard to see when we're so isolated and holding all the pain inside. I've never gone to professional counseling but I think it'd do me a lot of good to talk to someone trained in the area of baby loss/grief.

This ^^. Although I am not sure it would do me any good to talk to someone trained in the area of baby loss/grief. I accept that what I am feeling is normal and that it is ok to have moments of grief and sadness.

 

[Whitbit22]

Thanks for all the replies.. now onto more pressing matters.

Has anyone ANY idea what is normal for AF after mc? I mean is constant dripping blood, one pad every 30 mins right? Cough here, sneeze there, a gush with every time? I'm freaked out.. this is the second day it's been heavy but it's even worse than yesterday. I cant seem to find any GOOD info out there of what is normal. Started bleeding about 3 weeks +2 days AFTER my last day of bleeding from the mc.. so could I have retained something?