FOB came round tonight.............

[hancake100]

It was the first time I had seen him since he left (coming up to 9weeks)........ I have been so nervous all day seeing him and thinking how I would feel and what Ellie would be like seeing him.

Well he came in and it was a little strange and I couldnt really look at him. Ellie just clung to me for dear life but came round a little and played with him etc....

He was here for about an hour and I just felt so uneasy, when he was leaving I started to get a little upset and he told me that it wasnt hard for him seeing me and that it would get easier for me

btw the reason for him coming round tonight was to bring me Ellies car seat and my house key back, before this was arranged he told me that he didnt want anything to do with either me or Ellie and that he didnt want to be her dad and that he couldnt and to find another guy to be her daddy so I can have my proper family I have always talked about.

When he left he kissed Ellie on the head and said goodbye little one and hope to see you soon................

why would he say that when he said he didnt want anything to do with her. He has also said that he wouldnt ever bother getting a solicitor or go as far as taking it to court and he would just deal with it.

Where do I go from here??? If he gets intouch to ask to come round and see her again, what do I say because I cant go through that again.

Our break up has been a really nasty one on his half and he has said so many abusive hurtful things, I ust dont know what to do.

I feel really upset after seeing him, I dont feel like I have gone back to square one where I was at the start of out break up, I just feel strange as I do still have something there for him, I dont know why after him being so nasty

Can anyone give me any advice please and sorry for the rant

 

[sophxx]

hun i didnt know you was going through this you should have omed me i would have done anything i could to help you out or even just to take your mind of things. i think if i was you id wait for him to get intouch if he does say that it was to much for you seeing him and would feel better if it was done through a nuetral person/ some one you both know or even in a contact center then you dont have to have any contact with him, id also suggest that he sees ellie set times so as to not confuse her. have you had any councilling it might help just to talk it through with some one you dont know and doesnt know your oh. if you need to get out just pm me or you need to chat x

 

[hancake100]

Hey hun, sorry ive not been intouch, had so much going on and I feel a little upside down. I dont think I have your number either, didnt you change it. Ive still got the same number so either txt me yours or pm me. Would be good to meet up again and have a chat if you fancy?
hes been intouch today saying that it was nice to see us both last night and that he would like to spend more time with us as being Ellies parents and nothing else. Its really hard though its still all so fresh and really hard for me, he seems like he has moved on and doesnt give me a second thought. We were together for just over 5years and he seems to have just walked away pretty easy.
Ive had Ellies surname changes aswell from his to mine that all went through on Tuesday so I am happy about that