Oh gueyilla, I'm so sorry. How are you doing with all of this? I will pray for
them. Can I have a first name maybe to add to our prayers, I'll pray with my kids. I'm so sorry.
Katie, I love you and I'm sorry I got offline. I painted, Im trying really hard to stay distracted because I'm so anxious. I have been oing on the day of my +opk, i thought thst there was a pretty good chance i would have more warning this time because it's so early. I'm waiting on my usual pains, I'm having pains on both sides, mostly the right. I have 2 hours still until bd. Or at least we have to wait that long if we want morethan a quickie. You know the other day when you were talking about dressing up? I just took my bath and am basically waiting. I am pretending to not feel so well so the kids won't think anything of us going to bed when the youngest goes down. He always goes down just after the 3 little girls so only the 4 bigger ones will be up and they can put themselves to bed. Anyway, I took my bath and picked out my nightgown which I never really sleep in them anyway. I totally subconsciously chose a certain one. I didn't realize it until my dh said something. It's a plain white cotton granny gown. He always comments that he likes it. So I suppose it's really no different than dressing up, I still put something on that would get his attention, even though I wasn't thinking about it at the moment I chose it.
Mummylove, if you have a light line on your opk I would wait. Patience is a virtue, of which I have none. Seriously though, your temps were erratic in a wider range when you first started temping, they are still a little erratic somewhat but in a more narrow range, they seem to have balanced out a bit but I would expect them to more. I would wait a bit longer. Maca and vitex can balance out hormones and you take it the entire cycle, some say not to take vitex through the cycle but I side with those that say you can. That little bit of a linemay be your sign that you're supposed to wait.
Katie, I still think you are 2dpo. Do you have any days in there that you didn't mark your cm? That may be throwing ff too.
So, did you all see the opk pics I posted? I think I posted my smu one this morning. My usual brand looked almost pos, the Answer dark but neg. I did two more ic ones, late morning, afternoon and they were each darker. I just did another Answer and it's much lighter than this am. It could be that the Answer ones aren't so good or damaged. I'm so scared I already o'd. Surely not, I don't feel that typical pain that I normally get on o day yet. I normally get my pos in the am and feel that pain by late afternoon or early evening. I feel like I'm just waiting for it bu hoping it waits a bit longer. 2 hours. Geez, it seems like forever.
Nikki, thank you for your kind words. I know I have something to say about everything, likely too much and more than anyone really wants to hear. My head is too busy, my mind whirls so fast all the time and I have to think about every little detail and I make myself crazy. My dh says I'm anal(I hate that word) and that I'm ADD. One te I told him he had to go to the dr to check his blood pressure, I was scared and I was being demanding about it. He told me he wouldn't go unless I went to the dr because my knees crackle when I go up and Down stairs, it doesn't hurt unless I do it constantly, and he wanted me to find out if I'm ADD. So I went, and I'm not. I wouldn't care anyway because it takes all types to make this world go round. Even with my books on here, I hope that everyone knows that it is my deepest intent to be loving and caring and supporting of everyone, despite differences. I really want to do all that I can to help anyone that I can. That is what makes me feel good about life and about who I am.
Babyhopes, I couldn't open the video, it's just an issue with my iPod. I'll try tomorrow on my computer.
OMGoodness, I think my youngest is going to sleep now. He'll be up at 4am but who cares, that'll mean b time 30 minutes earlier.