going insane !

[Gillnian]

Hi all,

Not one for posting on here as I take more comfort in reading your posts and knowing I am not the only one feeling a bit loopy in the mad world of TCC !!

Fiance and I have been ttc 10 months with no avail. I am just 40 (two weeks ago) and fiance 42. We both have a child each but not to each other. Cycles have been super regular at 28 days and testing for OV has proven successful around CD13. We have tried every known aid, position, relaxed approach, stressed to hell approach, PRESEED and all without success obviously !! Last month I didnt really test for OV and was shocked when AF arrived full force on CD 23/24. This month I went to church for a funeral.... even prayed to St Gerard Magella and tried not to obsess too much... but tested and we had a smiley face at cd9. BD'd quite regularly over the next few weeks then stupidly thought ...ok just one more OPK...and another smiley face three days later.

As a POAS addict, I tested from dpo 6 onwards and had a few faint lines, then nothing. Assumed the tests were faulty, they were out of date, the light wasn't quite right...or my urine was someone elses !! I took the first smiley face as possible sign of OV which makes today 16DPO and BFN.

Am now in a state of unrest as I just want an answer either way. Head is battered as I am now not sure if I am two days late or maybe I did OV after the second smiley face and due AF today. My stomach has been like a rock the last two days and the usual psychosomatic sore breasts..but is it AF or am I nuts !!!!!! Just wondered what your thoughts were!!

Just on a funny note..realised my POAS obsession has got out of hand this month. I have tested sometimes 4 times per day, at home, in work...I work in a large office so its a bit difficult to hog the ladies toilet for a length of time, so I have started taking a sample out on my lunch with me and testing in the car. The last resort for me, when I knew it was completely out of control...was when I couldnt find a bottle to urinate into. I had to use a mug...one of those freebies stuck in the office kitchen. Had to smuggle it out precariously in my bag, walking slowly to my car with my urine sloshing around !!Tested and nothing conclusive. A short while later I put my bag on the seat with me to put my make up on...felt this lovely warm patch around my behind..i had only forgotten the mug was in there and proceeded to spill the entire contents into my car seat. I looked like I had wet myself. Tried to dry of using the hand dryer back at work and proceeded to spend a warm afternoon smelling of my own urine!!! eughhhhh!

YES I AM NUTS...and having jibbed the tests I now have none to try and help me find out if I am PG or not !!

If nothing..I can laugh at the whole insanity this thing does to you !

Thanks for listening!.

Baby dust to all xxxxx

 

[readyformore]

ROFL.

Yes, ttc does make a person suffer from insanity!

I couldn't really vote because I don't do opks. I've never had a + on one, and the lack of a positive makes me feel broken. I know when I ov, so I just go with that.
I occassionally do hpts, but they are usually -, and that makes me depressed. So, I don't do many of those either.

Good luck!

 

[Angel baby]

When I was late, I was testing 3 times a day! It's definitely stressful! Have u tried softcups too? I'm trying that with preseed this month

 

[Suki73]

Lmao

I wouldn't test above twice a day, at 2pm and in the evening, just for your own peace of mind - and wallet!!!

 

[73pink]

Oh how funny about the cup!

I have infact taken my positive opk to work with me so I could keep looking at it(I tested at home)and because i was so happy to have a positive one!

I think twice a day is good.

 

[mrshanna]

No fear I have tested at work as well!!!

 

[Indigo77]

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[NorthStar]

I'm not big on the whole POAS thing, once I get my positive OPK I stop testing.

Tere are quite a few POAS "specialists" on the forum who might have some stories

 

[Indigo77]

I'm not big on the whole POAS thing, once I get my positive OPK I stop testing.

Tere are quite a few POAS "specialists" on the forum who might have some stories

Where's DMom?

 

[dachsundmom]

I'm not big on the whole POAS thing, once I get my positive OPK I stop testing.

Tere are quite a few POAS "specialists" on the forum who might have some stories

Where's DMom?

Here I am!

Girl, I totally commend your dedication! While I have never dropped the pee in my car, on occasion, I will POAS at work. Here's why this cycle has looked like:

Starting from CD1, I had 67 OPKs and 40 something HPTs. But, last week I had two more orders of HPTs show up, so add 24 more to that.

I started POAS on CD6, and at times, I have dipped 4 different brands of OPKs at once, just to make sure they all show me the same thing. Guess what, they don't. Lol. While I don't post the pics on this board, I do on another thread in the discussions forum.

I will start HPTs around 5-6DPO; yes, I know it is early, but I like to see what I can expect with them, in the form of evaps. I have gone as far as drying the test with my hair dryer to see if I could make an evap appear. BTW, mammag did a great pictorial on the Testing forum about how to make a positive by letting a wet OPK and HPT touch, lol.

Once I get my BFN, I will either pull the test apart or take the strip to the window to make sure I am not missing anything. If this fails, I have a LED flashlight that I use to check it. I post these pics too, but also in the 'negative' form so everyone else can see if I missed anything.

I keep the previous month's tests to compare with the current month's in a ziplock in my bathroom. As soon as CD1 hits, I will place yet another order from Amazon. Right now, I am desperate to get my hands on the CB digi tests from the UK that have the conception indicator on them; they cannot be shipped to the States for some reason.

You aren't nuts, see, there is much worse out there! Good luck with all of your testing. And, BTW, I always love to see pics. Feel free to send them to me!

 

[sarahincanada]

ha ha thats quite a story!!!! I have never been much of a poas addict, once I get that first bfn I give up. Actually last cycle I tested every day in the morning. but theres a lot of poas addicts in here, not sure if they will top your story though!!!

as for the ov test...if you had a positive still 3 days later I dont think you would have ovulated that first day as the surge would have gone. So I would guess you ovulated the 3 days later. So that means you are due around now...hope the evil witch stays away!!!

 

[crystal443]

Your POAS addiction is funny I only POAS once a day until I get + OPK and then until I get a -, and I don't do HPT's anymore I'm never late for so I'd only do one if I was at least a few days late..I can't stand to see a I love to see other people's tests though

 

[NorthStar]

I'm not big on the whole POAS thing, once I get my positive OPK I stop testing.

Tere are quite a few POAS "specialists" on the forum who might have some stories

Where's DMom?

Here I am!

Girl, I totally commend your dedication! While I have never dropped the pee in my car, on occasion, I will POAS at work. Here's why this cycle has looked like:

Starting from CD1, I had 67 OPKs and 40 something HPTs. But, last week I had two more orders of HPTs show up, so add 24 more to that.

I started POAS on CD6, and at times, I have dipped 4 different brands of OPKs at once, just to make sure they all show me the same thing. Guess what, they don't. Lol. While I don't post the pics on this board, I do on another thread in the discussions forum.

I will start HPTs around 5-6DPO; yes, I know it is early, but I like to see what I can expect with them, in the form of evaps. I have gone as far as drying the test with my hair dryer to see if I could make an evap appear. BTW, mammag did a great pictorial on the Testing forum about how to make a positive by letting a wet OPK and HPT touch, lol.

Once I get my BFN, I will either pull the test apart or take the strip to the window to make sure I am not missing anything. If this fails, I have a LED flashlight that I use to check it. I post these pics too, but also in the 'negative' form so everyone else can see if I missed anything.

I keep the previous month's tests to compare with the current month's in a ziplock in my bathroom. As soon as CD1 hits, I will place yet another order from Amazon. Right now, I am desperate to get my hands on the CB digi tests from the UK that have the conception indicator on them; they cannot be shipped to the States for some reason.

You aren't nuts, see, there is much worse out there! Good luck with all of your testing. And, BTW, I always love to see pics. Feel free to send them to me!

See, Subject Matter Expert there - Dachie should actually be working the labs at Clearblue running them all through their paces....that is a combination of a scientific mind and a woman on a mission

 

[dachsundmom]

For your viewing pleasure, lol. This is an IC and a CB non digi OPK. They are both positive!

Here's the thing, my new monitor told me a week ago that today would be my peak and I should've listened to it; I could've stopped the POAS insanity, lol.

 

[Gillnian]

Update:
I am CD 30 and either 16 DPO or 19 DPO still testing 3 times a day! all BFN's. Sore boobs and mild cramping on and off still very frustrated and extremely confused, anyone else get BFN's at this stage and end up pregnant?

 

[dachsundmom]

Update:
I am CD 30 and either 16 DPO or 19 DPO still testing 3 times a day! all BFN's. Sore boobs and mild cramping on and off still very frustrated and extremely confused, anyone else get BFN's at this stage and end up pregnant?

Gotta chart we can see?

 

[Gillnian]

D.mom, no chart..this is the UK and we have no patience !!

Stiff upper lip and all that!

Slight scare this evening as have prodded cervix so much I now have a faint pink tinge in cm !! So not only obsessive POAS addict...also serial cervix prodder !!

This cycle has been a total head wrecker ....the only consolation is that across the pond you are on a par with my addiction and for one cycle I actually saw the funny side.

xx

 

[pdmcd17]

I'm thought my poas addict was bad I'm minor I poas every day for my opk till I know I ov. I now wait till cycle day 21 so about 7ish dpo for hpg and try really hard to wait till I'm late as I deteste the negatives

But lived the car pee story it's the best