Going out of my mind.

[Drazic<3]

Well, here we are. This exact time in my pregnancy last time, sometime between 4/5th November, my baby died. At 9+6/10 weeks. Exactly where I am now.

This is the stage when it goes wrong. When my babies heart just stops. Then we go for the scan. And baby is still, and quiet and gone.

Today, I have pains across my right hand side, and I don't feel sick. Yeah, I have had both of these things before since I have been pregnant this time, but not today. Not on the day.

I am so afraid. I can't do this again. I don't know wether to go to the EPU or just wait it out. I don't think I can go in that scan room. Tommorrow I would be the same stage as when we went in that scan room.

I can't do another medical, another loss. I just can't. I am so so scared. Why couldn't my body have given me a break today? Why pains today? Why no sickness today? I hate my body.

Ugh. Sorry girls.

 

[cazza22]

Oh Katie i feel ur pain sweetie its just an awful constant worry. I have got all my faith in this this bean babes i just know ur gonna be fine. Ur mind is bound to work overtime today of all days but just try to stay rested drink plenty of water, watch a crap film to try and take ur mind off thinks (i know thats not so easy) but once ur through today its another milestone crossed and ur on ur way to 12 weeks babe whoop whoop!! Im thinking ov you huny & always checking up on u 2 make sure ur ok x x x x x ((((((hugs))))) Lov Caz xxxxxxxxxxx

 

[WantaBelly]

I haven't made it to that point yet but I'm sure I will feel exactly the same way.........
I would say try not to stress but thats nearly impossible. I agree with Caz watch a crap movie, maybe one that makes you laugh, kick your feet up if you can, maybe take a warm bath and a nap. Tell yourself I'm Pregnant and I'm gonna enjoy it!

 

[everthingX]

I hope you are okay huni, keep positive I can understand your worries but you must keep positive for you and bubs. You are in my thoughts and wishing you lots of luck for tomorrow and bigs hugs xx

 

[Drazic<3]

Thanks so much girls, you are lovely. I have been reading and it could be that the pains are round ligament pains. Also, I have decided not to contact EPU as simply, I cannot go for a scan today or tomorrow - I just can't do it. If the pains get worse, or things change I will consider it but if my world is going to fall apart again I can't let it yet. When I finish work I will be getting the sofa bed out and chilling out.

Caz and everthingx, I know you are going through horrible, dark times right now. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for listening to me moan. I know it can't be easy. I am always here for you all too

 

[im_mi]

Oh sweetie, i wish i could give you a hug right now. I cant imagine how you feel, both of my losses were early ones and i cant imagine how hard it must be to get to a stage later on in 1st tri and lose, and have to go through all the physical stuff as well.

It will be okay, this time, though. It really will. Ive been getting quite sharp pains over the last few days but i just have to keep reminding myself that its normal, and thats what my body does when it's pregnant. I know its not always that easy sweetie and like i said before, i would be in a mess in your situation i am sure.

here for you, you will get through this ok?

 

[Drazic<3]

Thank you sweetheart. I always knew I would find this week hard, and should of expected my body to not make it easier! Sending

 

[im_mi]

to you too darling. our stupid bodies very rarely co-operate do they

 

[Drazic<3]

Never! I just could of done with a peaceful, very sick day! Should of known! Trying to be positive though

 

[lauralora]

hun your going to be fine i no how hard it is. and i remember when i was 6 weeks and 1 day (when i m/c last time) i was certain it would happen again, but i dont even think its possible to misscarry at the EXACT same time. i really feel positive about your pregnancy this time, tommorrow you will feel better xx

 

[poppykat]

It is so difficult to stay positive after a miscarriage. I rememeber thinking everyday I was going to lost this baby I ended up with 5 scans by the time I was 12 weeks as I had such bad cramps and was so paranoid. I am lucky my EPU unit were so helpful and understanding.

When do you have another scan scheduled? If you really aren't happy hun I would see if you can have another scan. Then hopefully it will put your mind at rest.

Sending lots of positive thoughts your way and wishing you a very healthy pregnancy. xx

 

[Ferret]

It's going to be a hard week hun, but we'll all be here when you need to vent. Keeping you in my thoughts and sending lots of positivity you way.

 

[Amos2009]

Aww Drazic.....massive to you....Nothing I can say will take the worry away, just know that we are here for you. Try your best to think positive thoughts- negative ones are not good for you nor little one!

 

[debgreasby]

Hugs hunni - now don't you dare go writing yourself off! Stay strong and keep up that PMA!

We're all here for you.

Don't forget that you are probably over analysing every symptom or lack of due to the stage you are at. It's natural to worry, but doesn't mean that the worst will happen xxx

 

[Drazic<3]

Thank you girls. you are all wonderful x

 

[LunaBean]

Hope you're doin ok.. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Las78]

Oh hun, it could just be stress or anxiety or stretching, I know it's so very hard not to worry especially when you are coming up to the time of your last loss, I too was waiting for it to happen but you know what hun, it didn't and I'm keeping everything crossed and praying that it doesn't for you either. Remember it is quite common for the symptoms to come and go at this stage hun. Once you get past tommorrow it will get a little easier, keep strong, keep positive, it will be ok hun xx

 

[Drazic<3]

Thank you girls. I am trying to be a little more positive today. I feel a little more sick today but it really is starting to settle down. I am just trying to remind myself that is is COMPLETELY NORMAL for the sickness to settle as the placenta takes over between 9-11 weeks. Moreover, round ligament pains are totally normal over the 3-4 month. Other than a date, nothing has changed. I just need to get passed it. I am not going to bother the EPU because there is no reason to other than my own paranoia! Only 17 days until my NT scan anyway.

Hope you are all doing well

 

[meldmac]

Just wanted to give you some massive and know that I'm here if you need me.

 

[Drazic<3]

Thank you darling, always the same for you hun