Going through a bit of a low

[JASMAK]

I know I shouldn't whine, as I have two chldren, and I often feel I don't have the right to whine when I am so blessed already. So, I completely understand if you want to skip this post, or not bother to read it.

I am just sick of this tho. It is so unfair. Why can't I just get pregnant? It feels like I have to climb Mt. Everest, without oxygen, and no gear. It just seems so painfully hard. I just want to break down and cry. WHY? I am not angry that other's get pregnant...I really am not. But, I just don't understand why my body isn't working. I am so sick of people's comments too..."are you sure you want another one?" "Maybe this is God's way of saying you have your hands full enough" "Now is just not the time". What the heck do these people know anyways?!! I feel like I am a good person, a good mother, I eat well, and I try to be good all around...yet, something I feel like I DESERVE...I can't have! I saw a crack whore the other night...pregnant...sleeping on the street! Is that what I should do too?!!! I hate this!

 

[CapitalChick]

I have no idea what to say. In fact, I spend most of my time on this site trying to help myself feel better.
I just wish you all the best and hope your prayers get answered quickly. Best wishes!

 

[xXx Vamp xXx]

Heya sweetheart, I don't think anyone has the right to say that god has decided you have enough already. I think it's understandable that you want another child so much and it's going to make you feel this way. Big big hugs

 

[Arcanegirl]

It understandable you feel frustrated with your body, whether you have kids or not when ttc isnt plain sailing it can still be an emotional process.

 

[Vickie]

I think that wanting a baby, whether number 1 or number 3, and having problems conceiving is frustrating for anyone. I don't understand why others can't see that it's just as heartbreaking for you as it is for those who are trying to have number 1

 

[Loula]

I agree with you Vickie.

I am having a pretty low time myself at the mo and can barely bring myself to even log in here, you aren't alone in how you feel.
not really got any words of advice or anything that'll make you feel better ( there is only one thing that will!!)

 

[JASMAK]

Thanks. I am feeling a bit better today. I am so glad I have everyone here. I don't know anyone in "real life" who is going through "problems".

 

[Amanda]

Hey Jasmak, I'm in almost exactly the same situation as you. 2 great kids already and I've been ttc #3 since September 06. I haven't had the heartache of loss that you've had, I just haven't got pg.

It's so frustrating when people tell you that you should be happy with what you've got. My best friend asked me the other week why I want another one!!!! (oh - she's already mother to 3 )

Wobbles said something to me a few weeks ago, which really helped me realise I'm allowed to feel this way. Her and SC went to hell and back to get Caitlin, and the heartbreak they went through month after month waiting and waiting for a sticky, then she didn't have the best pregnancy and was in a lot of pain. But she said that even after all that, the urge and the pull and the want to have another child was magnified a hundred times now that they have Caitlin. Thats how I feel. I'm a good mum. I have a teenager and a toddler, and I want another child. Why is it not happening????!!!

You rant away hunnie, and don't ever apologise for already having 2 kids. You're still entitled to feel this way.

If you ever want to chat, just PM me.

 

[JASMAK]

Wow, thanks Amanda! That was a really nice post. Made me feel a whole lot better. (hugs)

 

[Amanda]

Glad I could be of assistance. I'm sure you'll refer the favour when I'm on one of my many down days!