"Good" news and a rant

[aidensxmomma]

This is kind of pointless, but I just need to share.

I got my period today, which really isnt that great, but I'm really excited. My cycles have been screwed up for a while, and it seemed like they were getting longer. My last cycle was 80 days! But this cycle was only 45. It makes me feel a million times better that my cycle wasn't super long and it seems to be a more normal length. I really hope my cycles are becoming more regular again, which will make TTC easier.

And as for my rant...

My best friend just found out she's pregnant today. I honest just want to cry. I am happy for her, but I am jealous tol, which makes me feel really bad. On top of that my other best friend is around 12 weeks pregnant (and has an 8 month old), and the only other female friend I have might be pregnant. I really want to be a two year old and throw a tantrum. I've been having a really rough time with WTT recently, especially with th he anniversary of my daughter's death right around the corner and this definitely hasn't helped.

Sorry...just needed to get that all off my chest.

 

[Eline]

I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time. I hope you have someone close to you you can talk to.

 

[RainbowDrop_x]

 

[Caite]

I understand how tough it is when everyone around you is pregnant. Loads of my friends/family/people I used to work with are pregnant right now and it is so tough. I'm excited for them all, but also jealous, and a little angry at one in particular - I'll never tell her that, though!

 

[aidensxmomma]

Exactly. I swear theres at least 10 people on my facebook who are pregnant. I am happy for them and jealous. One I'm a little upset with too. I love her to death, but I really wish she would have waited. I worry about her and this isnt going to help. But I will obviously support her. Our time will come.

 

[Caite]

That's exactly like me. My cousin is not in the right place at all to have a baby. She's in an abusive on/off relationship, no job, no money. she had a miscarriage about 6 months or so ago, which hit her really bad, and I think this baby is kind of like a replacement for her. But, she wants my support, which I will give her completely, but it doesn't stop me being a little angry/annoyed/frustrated/jealous.