NO NO NO NO NO NO NO. YOU WILL NOT ALLOW THIS MAN'S FAILINGS TO RULE AND GOVERN YOU AND YOUR LIFE. You don't feel like it but inside you have an innate strength, we all do. No matter how dark it seems now there is definitely a light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how hard it may seem to come across it.
Fight, fight, fight for all you are worth. It may not seem it at this moment and things may appear futile but THEY ARE NOT. Come on darling, we all have these horrible dark moments but we somehow come out stronger. You're due such better things and a quality man. I know it.