Grumpy with OH over something stupid vent

[hannahhlove]

I know its extremely stupid to be grumpy over, but I am anyways OH is over and were sitting on the couch. He asked to use the laptop I was on, so I give it to him so he can go on his dumb car forums. I gave it to him and was reading the forum pages he was on cause were sitting next to eachother. When he told someone he had a picture of a car part and he'd send it to them, he was about to log into photobucket to get it. He then looked over at me and said 'what are you doing?' ... Like questioning why I was looking at the computer. He knows I always look and try to seem interested in his car crap - even though I couldn't care less about it. Then he moves the laptop away so I can't see it before he types in his user/pass. I asked him what his user name was since apparently he didn't want me to see and his response was 'go away'. It makes me feel like he's hiding something on there? If he doesn't want me knowing his username or seeing the pictures on there, really has me wondering what's on there I've always had trouble trusting any guy cause I always seem to find the good ol' cheaters. We've been together for 2.5 yrs, but were seeing eachother 6 mnths before that, while he was also seeing another girl, and a wk after we started dating he cheated on me with her. A while after that I found he was still talking to her, and hiding it from me. I have major trust issues due to stupid luck with guys, and thought I was doing well with actually trusting .. Until now and I am questioning myself. I want to go on the history on my computer when he's not here and see if it'll say his username, but I feel so nosey. Grr I hate horomones ... And being grumpy over dumb things Also doesn't help I can't decide if its braxton hicks, beginning of labour, or just cause I can't 'go' to the bathroom, but I keep getting bad back pain and stabbing pains in my lower pelvis area I suck.

 

[lizmageeful]

I think this is a mix of hormones, past experience, and probably some nerves on his part. I see from your ticker that you're LO should be here any day now, and hes gotta be nervous about that, mix that with your hormones, and you guys both have to be a little on edge. But I wish you the best with OH and i totally understand the frustration and feeling that the guy in your life is hiding something. :/

 

[hannahhlove]

Thanks. You're probably right its just super frustrating. As I lay here crying debating why I'm having his baby and its a mistake that its with him I know I don't actually feel that way, I've never questioned that before. I'm 6 days over now

 

[lizmageeful]

ugh. im really hoping i dont go much over due date. im almost 19 weeks and I already want to meet him/her! Already the amount of times ive questioned if all of this is right and what i'm gonna do is ridiculous. Ive been having INSANE moodswings. FOB has taken to calling me Hulk-Smash on really bad days. but then I remember that deep down I love him no matter how frustrated I am with him. But the frustration really sucks and I hope you get to meet your LO soon!